:our name is our virtue:

2010-01-01T11:56:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!

Make your 2010 resolutions happen! :)

but I was waiting for you

2009-11-25T14:30:00.004+08:00

I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on and don't shed a tear

Through the darkness and good times
I knew I'd make it through
And the world thought I had it all
But I was waiting for you

Hush, now

I see a light in the sky
Oh, it's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new sun

A new day has come

Where it was dark now there's light
Where there was pain now there's joy
Where there was weakness, I found my strength
All in the eyes of a boy

Hush, now

I see a light in the sky
Oh, it's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new sun

A new day has..

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new sun

A new day has come

Hush, now

I see a light in your eyes
All in the eyes of the boy

I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love

still waiting for you

to experience this amazing feeling

when I see the light in your eyes

all in the eyes of a boy.

A New Day Has Come

the reason is you

2009-11-15T21:32:00.006+08:00

It took me a few seconds to realise where I am now,what was I doing,how did I get here and why am I doing this.

2 days yelling at kids. Having sore throat and my 'sexy man voice'. The tense and noise everywhere I go. Those little kids were really hard to handle. Goodness gracious. Kids of age 7-12 were there. Approximately about 60 kids turned up. About 20 facilitators,assistants and teachers altogether.

This was my assistant - Karbilan (special thanks to him in helping me out with the little devils)

So my group was yellow and we came up with the name Sunshine.

Our cheer was this

'You are my sunshine,my only sunshine,you make me happy when Sunshine wins. You'll never know,dear how much I love you,friends don't take my Sunshine friends!'

This was the ketua for my Sunshine group.

Gosh,what more can I say? They're kids. They run everywhere,shout at each other,talk to their friends all the time,not respecting the faci's or the teachers. They're just little devils on the outside. But have you seen inside?

They're like little angels. Such a contradicting point. I know. But thats who they are. Little angels. Gems discovered from the ocean. A glass which is half empty/half full waiting to be filled with more water.

Angels in the inside and devils on the outside. :)

When everyone rushed home with their parents,this 1 girl who's name is Pavitraa came up to me before she left and kissed me on my cheeks.

Then I told myself silently 'This is exactly where I stand. This is where I'm suppose to be. This is what I should do.'

Being a teacher for this kids,nurturing them and to be a friend to hold their hand and show them the light on this dark and empty road is my greatest pleasure and blessing in this path of service. Each kid comes with a special token,an instrument to the world using their own abilities and talents. To be there and witness this gift from God has always lighten my day.

Today is my best day in 2009. This is my spiritual reason.

Look around you,look at everyone,think about them. Take note about their character and personality. Realise that you are an example to someone else in this world. Notice that you can make a difference in someone's life. You can be a role model to someone. Every difference starts with us. So look in the mirror and tell yourself

'every difference starts with me'.

P.S. - There's 3 now!

goosebumps

2009-10-24T13:44:00.003+08:00

She still blows me away. And makes me cry. She gives me goosebumps. Gives chills up my spinal cord. She's one in a million!

She's definitely my inspiration. My motivation. My drive to study and work hard in life. My reminder to always be there for my family. What she does is really amazing. She's amazingly amazing!

She called up Lisa Smith on stage for such a special and wonderful song. She is a gift from God.

Thanks to God for sending her down to Earth to move millions of our hearts and inspire us with her life story!!

when there's no tomorrow

2009-10-18T00:02:00.004+08:00

Did you say it?

"I love you."

"I don't ever wanna live without you."

"You changed my life."

DId you say it?

Make a plan.

Set a goal.

Work toward it.

But every now and then,look around.

Drink it in.

It took me a while to understand. So messed up. So complicated. Did I say it? Did you say it?

Cause this is it.

It might all be gone tomorrow.

I love you. I don't ever wanna live without you. You changed my life.

Family. Friends. Relatives. Society.

new artist on the loose!!

2009-10-08T18:21:00.002+08:00

Woohoo!!

She's from California! Originated from Malaysia though. She was sent there to enjoy the nice beaches rather than the ones in Malaysia like PD beach. Disgrace. Anyways it wasn't only about the beaches that took my breath away in this mv,it was also the flowers,the clothes she wore,her funny hair which she really sayang-ed a lot and most of all looking at an mv on my best friend!! It was amazing. It was chunn! Lets speak no more and watch the mv! :)

truly a gift from God

2009-10-03T16:05:00.006+08:00

I'm still overwhelmed and tearing from the amazing voice I heard of this wonderful girl. She is a one in a million singer to blow you away and take your breath away. She took my breath away with every single song she sang. She sings her heart out. She sings truly for her mom from the bottom of her heart and gives her mom the best of everything. The pain that caused her to be the way she is now is sincerely a way of God showing us that crisis and victory goes along.

What more should I say when she's just breath-taking. She's amazing. Listen from her and let yourself open your heart to her amazing story and tremendous past and get your tissue box ready!

Cried enough for her? She just takes my breath away. Look at how far she has come and you'll be stunned.

This song blew me away. Left me totally utterly speechless. She sang her heart out. For herself and her mom. Such an amazing song sung by such an amazing talented 17 year old girl.

All hail Charice Pempengco!!

She is a gift from God! Who moved our hearts and made us believe that dreams do come true.

this is my great escape

2009-09-22T14:12:00.008+08:00

When everything falls apart,make yourself worthy of something in this world even if you may not to a certain extent.

Gird Up Your Loins!

Thats something I would always tell my friends but this time its time for me to tell that to myself. Although the world may seem like its falling apart in your life,think about the people who loves you for who you are. Love is beyond words to describe.

The Greatest Thing You'll Ever Learn Is To Love and Be Loved In Return.

(Moulin Rouge)

Let someone love you. Give them the chance. Open your heart.

The emptiness in your heart will definitely be filled with much love if you just give a chance. Take the risk.

What's Life Without A Little Calamity?

(Grey's Anatomy)

Brian McFadden & Leann Rimes - Everybody's Someone

I've always loved this song. Not mentioning the harmonisation and the blending between the 2 singers is amazing. I felt in love with this song the moment I heard it. Such beautiful lyrics in making every single soul in this world important and precious. Whenever you're alone,just listening to this song confirms you're someone special to someone else in this world. Everyone is someone! :)

Kate Voegele - Lift Me Up

When you're down and need a lift/a drive in life,listen to this song! Its all about finding something/someone that would stand by you and lift you up no matter how deep you fall into. So open your heart for that person to walk in your life and share your life together. May it be a best friend,a long-lost friend,an enemy,your family members or someone special in your life.

catch me when I fall

2009-09-17T23:46:00.008+08:00

I'm getting sick and tired of my life. I lost my drive in life. No motivation. No goal. No desire. No purpose. It didn't just happen out of the blue. Everything i'm going through or rather said everything people around me is going through affects my life. Their problems. Their rants. Their actions. Effects my life. Good or bad. I am the person I never thought I would be. 2009 is hectic. For the past few months,I've been tested mentally by God a lot. Perhaps what we go through as family affects each member who contributes to other people's lives.

Is this what you would call social development?

This is real tough for me. I tend to carry other weights on my shoulder even if it has nothing to do with me. Somehow it just affects life.

May it be an inspiration. May it be a motivation. May it be a downfall or a disgrace. May it be a dissapointment. May it be your fuel to drive around.

Its getting harder by the day to stay focused and together in this situation. I just can't help to think that I may need to let this slip off my hand for once and maybe catch it back again when I miss it. Its so hard. Frustration is getting to me. Anger and sarcasm is too. This attitude of mine itself disgusts and degrades my inner self. At times like this,I wish time passes by so fast that I wouldn't realise it. I wish I found that satisfaction for once and not please people around me who has high expectations. It isn't easy anymore to find that satisfaction in me because right now,I have no idea at all what do I want and what would please me.

PS : I think I'm falling for you. Since the day you woke me up from slumber. :)

i need to love somebody like you

2009-08-22T23:52:00.010+08:00

This is gonna be so cheesy. So whoever reading this,it isn't a rant. Nor is it a proclaimation of love. And nope,its not Mirshal confessing her secrets lie hidden under her bed or her bolster or maybe pillow. Haha :)

Its a special dedication to my best friend,Charmaine Leong.

We met last year at Balakong for Ruhi Intensive. Thank God for such a great friend. Although only months of knowing her,we happen click very well and had many heart-to-heart talks. It meant a lot to me. Knowing her more makes me feel really thankful for having such a wonderful friend. I could never ask for a better friend.

For all I know,I love her with all my heart. She is a friend I would shed tears for if anything happen like one of us moving away/apart,a fight/an arguement or maybe just because I miss her so much! I love her for who she is. She's there for me when I needed her the most. Phone calls. Messages. We always updated each other. Although a bit hard for us to meet up. We try. :)

We could stay all day on the phone with each other

We fight together! :)

It doesn't matter even its black or white

Thumbs up to our friendship!

I love you honey!! With all my heart!

oh yeah it has been long

2009-08-21T11:37:00.005+08:00

It has been so long. Freaking loooong!!! :)

So yeah I'm sorry and all the crap in the world that would make you feel better if you're kepping up with my blog.

I'm sooo excited about Paramore's new album thats gonna be released on 29th of September 2009. Which is like another a month and 8 days to go. AHHHHH!! I'm going nuts about them! PARAMORE! For those who knows me well enough,I'm someone who would shout Paramore every single minute either in boredem,just talking trash about something else and especially when I'm listening to music! PARAMORE!!

Brand New Eyes

Thats their new album coming out soon! A little bit about the album,the tittle itself explains the contents and lyrics of their new songs. The past 2 albums,All We Know Is Falling and RIOT! was more into relationships. Brand New Eyes will be more into friendships. During an interview,Hayley Williams the lead singer said that after the 2nd album,things happened in all their lives involving friendship so it opened a brand new eyes to all their members. Therefore this album is named Brand New Eyes.

This is a Paramore Promo Video. So I hope you guys enjoy it. :)

PARAMORE!!! (echo) (more. more. more.) PARAMORE!!!

wooohoooo

2009-07-27T20:04:00.008+08:00

This song is soo awesome! Never expected for this

kinda song from someone like Utada but I guess

thats who she is. Haha :)

You know why
Im gonna be yours tonight
Were gonna ooohaaah
FYI
Were gonna be up all night
I'll see you later
Call me, you know my number

(Thanks to Rachel for introducing it to me!)

Now that I'm addicted to it,she'll be very happy to hear that.

Next I was just looking around on youtube and found this guy who made

a cover of Taylor Swift's Love Story in Romeo's perspective. :)

We were both young when I first saw you. 
I close my eyes and the flashback starts.. 
.. you're standing there.. on a balcony in summer air.  

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns. 
Making my way, I'm moving through the crowd to say "ello.."

Little did you know..  

.. that I was Romeo, as I was throwing pebbles.. 
.. heard your father say "Stay away from Juliet!" 
Had to leave you crying on the staircase.. begging me "Please don't go!"

So I said..  

Julie I'll take you somewhere we can be alone. 
Just be patient.. nothing left to do but run. 
You'll be the princess, I'll be the prince.. 
It's a love story baby say "Yes."  

So you sneak out to the garden I'm hiding.. 
.. we keep quiet cause we're dead if they find me. 
Close your eyes. 
.. escape this town for a little while.  

I was Romeo, you were my Juliet. 
Even my father said loving you is not worth it. 
Had to leave you on crying on the staircase.. begging me "Please don't go!"

So I said..

Chorus

Julie I'll save you, they'll never come between us!
Just hold on and love is gonna free us! 
Don't be afraid, oh we'll make it through this! 
It's a love story.. baby just say "Yes."  

I'm sure she's tired of waiting. 
Swear I'm on my way, just had to work some things out! 
I hope her faith's not fading.. 
.. that was when I met her outskirts of town..

.. and I said..  

Julie I apologize, didn't mean to scare you. 
Need you more than anything.. I refuse to share you. 
Saw it in her eyes, she didn't know what to think.. 
I knelt to the ground and I pulled out a ring..  

And said..

"Marry me Juliet. You'll never have to be alone. 
I love you and that's all that I really know! 
I talked to our families, pick out a white dress.. 
.. it's a love story baby just say "Yes."  '

Cause we were both young when I first saw you.

Yeah he missed his line there. Haha. But I think it

was good. Not bad. So you rate it for you ownself.

I personally think it's interesting.

so can you lift me up?

2009-07-23T16:24:00.010+08:00

Hey yo'll. I've not being updated for a very long time now. I apologize for the really late update but there isn't much to update and well,lets just say Mirshal being her sluggish self again! So I'm sorry again. :) Hope I can make it up to you guys who pays attention to the non-exsistance of Mirshal for a long time. Well I do hope at least someone is reading my blog. :)

I was just reminiscing on our memories during high school. Especially the 2 special years where we grew even closer. Amazing friendship we had.
Rachel Ong!

This was the first "formal" letter I received from her. Instead of a birthday present on 29th November 2007,she gave me this piece of letter to blackmail her whenever I want to. I was allowed to blackmail her for her very own fault. Hahaha. :D

Then this came next as it was Valentines Day 2008. It came with a box of chocolate-i-dont-know-what. :)

Yeah the last letter I received during high school. This was before SPM. Lots of encouragement and love contained in this letter. The last sentenced stated was "You know that I know that we love each other to death!" Yes we do,Rachel! I do love you to death. It also came along with her fantastic art

I was really saying fantastic like I truly mean it but RACHEL!! You spelled my name wrongly!! How could you?! I was dissapointed but nah,I still do know she loves me very much. The drawing pretty much explains how close she is to me. I love the rain!! Not Bi Rain. But the rain!!! After the lightning and thunder. Yeah the rain! I love playing under the rain!! :D

[So the story goes on the less traveled road.
Its a variation of the one I was told.]

Form 6 is the less traveled road. Form 6 is build up of various aspects and thoughts. Nothing like what I was told.
I have really crazy and wacky friends in my class. Will post up a picture of them on the next post. Although a few of them really is intriguing and a dark horse,they're such awesome people in their own ways.

My wacky and crazy friends are Wai Theng,Kirsten and Nicole (Nicole Kidman). We have Nicole Richie as well in our class. The weird thing is Nicole Kidman doesn't sing and Nicole Richie sings,who's also a school Prefect and in choir. Those were 2 boards I was active in. I miss SMKBK/SMKKK so badly! :( Looking at all the things happening in school,I miss everything that happened in SMKBK! Choir!! Prefect!! Olahraga! PBSM! 4 Science 4! 5 Science 4!! All the memories we shared together. Being in the same class for 2 years gave us a new family! Even in choir,we were a family! In Prefectorial Board,it was another family!

Last but not least,Vote for Nicole Richie!! I mean Nicole Yap! She is an awesome friend and prefect. Believe in her and have faith that 'One person can change the world!'
In this case,Seafield. :)

RM17 for 2 movies + dinner

2009-07-09T21:04:00.010+08:00

I'm gonna start with "YAY!"

So here is how it goes for this post. Nat is back from Australia! So woohoo. And she never came back empty handed. I got my so called 'Paramore stuff' a few days back and immediately fell in love with. Wanna see it? :)

This is the first present. Yeah see the shape of my boobs? I was wearing it. Haha.

This is the second gift. My 2nd boyfriend. Theodore Michael Brown. Cute? Yeah,I love him! He's taken so too bad. :P

He is awesomely cute and sweet. I brought him to school today and he was bullied a lot. I'm so sorry darling but you were soo cute and I had to put you in front of me to motivate me in my studies. You did great though. I love you! :) So next stop,our Monday outing to The Curve. To watch the premiere of Obssesed and hopefully Transformers if we had the time. Obviously we did have to time. We picked Sher up at Sunway College at about 3:45pm. Then saw Nat and I remember hearing her say that "College sucks!" and "The English exam damn suck wei. So hard!" So yeah,that's Nat. I wonder still why was it so hard. So we went to The Curve straight. Went to Cineplex and checked out the movie. And woohoo Transformers was at 5:15pm. "YAY!",I screamed again! Haha. Finally Transformers for my eyes. Megan Fox to be judged as woman! Shia LeBouf for more action. Josh Duhamel for hillarious ways to get rid of the autority. Bumble Bee for loyalty and cuteness! Optimus Prime for macho-ness! And The Fallen for revenge and vengence. So all in all,Transformers rocked! Ohh and before Transformers,we had about 1 hour to spend. So we went to Mcd's for some filling-in-stomach and delaying-time outing for quite some time. Then here's the funny part. We drank Coke which is NOT Coke! We drank Sprite which is NOT Sprite! We drank Milo which is NOT Milo! It seems,they took out the CO2 from carbonated soft drinks. But what about the Milo? That totally sucked you know. Adding to it,Elyna and I was the poor victom of innocent-ness. A piece of advice : Never go to Mcd's at The Curve!

So then Transformers rocked with all the cast. I would conclude with much assurance that Megan Fox IS A WOMAN! For God's sake. Stop the bullshit with the rumour on Internet.

Transformers ended at about 8pm+. And it was kinda late. So we rushed to have dinner at a place we checked out earlier and thought it was good. So we ordered 2 meals and shared. Food wasn't all nice to be demanded in the first place.

Obssesed started at 9:30pm. We got our dinner done then rushed there to collect our tickets. The Fly Fm guy wanted to con us but nah,never worked. Sher was fast! She grabbed the tickets from him before he managed to con us successfully. We had 6 tickets altogether and there was only 3 of us. So we managed to sold out 2 tickets for RM10 each. In that way,we earned some profit. Well not some but a lot. Cause it was a premiere and it wasn't suppose to be on sale. All given out free. So yeah,we're bussiness woman! :)

RM17 for 2 movies and Dinner! Awesome? Yeah we are! :D

Why don't you stay? I'm down on my knees

2009-07-03T00:13:00.009+08:00

A dedication to a very special friend who is a big

chapter of my life and will always be.

Rachel Ong Ern Huey

8 years of friendship.

Still standing tall. Together and strong.

Through good and bad.

We managed it together.

Through laughter and tears.

We were there for each other.

All the stories you would tell me.

Your dreams. Your secrets.

Your knight in shining amour.

Your hillarious jokes that I'm currently telling my friends.

Your family drama.

Though my words may not express so much,gosh Rach,

I cant tell how much you actually mean to me.

Cause you're part of my life.

We shared this together.

8 years! Seriously 8 years.

And still counting.

I could never ask for a better friend than you.

It's impossible to have the same bond with

any other earthling.

All this years I merely believed in the word 'forever'

till I came accross someone so special

that I get along with in an instant and

talk about everything and anything.

I know this will last forever. I know it.

This is NOT GOODBYE. This is NOT the END.

Its our friendship we're talking about,

there's no end right?

You're someone I can count on with anything and

someone I trust my whole life with.

After all we've been through,we can do this!

SKYPE. MSN. CALLS.

We will make it through.

It doesn't matter if our thoughts differ from our actions,

we're together in our hearts.

We know that. You know that. I know that.

We know the love we have for each other.

All I have to say now is Darling,

I'M GONNA MISS SOO MUCH!

But you gotta do what you have to do in America.

You can do it! I believe in you!

And without believing our friendship would last,

I would never have let you go easily!

I LOVE YOU RACHEL ONG!!!

the way she went..

2009-06-27T11:57:00.003+08:00

23rd June 2009

12:00 pm

Paati passed away.

11:30am : Brother checked on her. She was fine. Breathing as normal. No difficulties whatsoever. She was still strong.

12:30pm : There she goes. Leaving us behind. No breath. No movement. No pulse. No amplitude.

Thats how she went.

Right Na Na Na

2009-06-13T00:48:00.003+08:00

Nancy,it's been so long since I haven't seen your face. (you know that song) Haha. Seriously I miss you guys badly and we gotta meet up soon to catch up on everything. Good old times. I really do wanna go back to the past and spend more time with our "gang". Haha :D
I love you!!

1. The person who tagged you is :
Nancy Alexandra Ang

2. Your relationship with him/her is :
Schoolmates for 5 years and classmates for 2 special years

3. Your first impression of him/her is:
ooo putihnye. haha :D

4. The most memorable moments with he/she is:
4 Science 4 and 5 Science 4

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is:
"i love you too"

6. If he/she becomes your lover??
haha. we wont go along well

7. If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve that:
erm..I wouldn't expect anyone to improve anything for me but if I were to choose her as my lover,then it means I accept her the way she is

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, what will you do:
we'll battle with penetrating words for sure

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
because we have so much difference

10. The most desired things you want to do for him/her now is:
I want to see her after soo long and give her a hug and tell her that I still love her :)

11. Your overall impression on him/her is:

she's a really good friend. someone you can always count on. and I love her the way she is. what we all had together in that 2 years of high school was really a memorable thing

12. The most ideal person you want to be is:
a successful wife and mother

15. For people who care and love you, say something to them:
I love you too and will try my best to love you as long as I can

16. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:
1) Elyna

2) Nat

3) Sher

4) Rach

5) Nancy

6) Pav

7) Sofie

8) Sukh

9) Yi Zhong

10) Vafa

17. Who is 6 having a relationship with?
err..I don't think there's anyone yet

18. Is 9 a male or a female?
female

19. What is 2 studying at the moment?
not studying yet. just got back from NS

20. Who was the last person you had a chat with?
number 3

21. What kind of music does 8 like?
he's currently crazy over Pitbull

22. Does 1 have any siblings?
yeah. 1 younger brother

23. Is 4 single?
yup. most definitely. I wonder when will she find a real guy if she keeps on going after celebrities like Tokio Hotel and lately Spongebob. crazy fella

24. What is the surname of 5?
Ang

25. What's the hobby of 3?
watch tv?

26. Do 7 and 9 get along well?
erm. they dont know each other. if they do,I dont think so.

27. Where is 10 studying at?
form 5 in I-dont-know-which-school

28. Say something casual about your eyes:
my eyes? oh they're big

29. Have you tried developing feelings for 2?
Nat? haha. I have a sisterly love for her lah. we're really close friends

30. Where does 9 live?
KK (Kota Kemuning)

31. What colour does 4 like?
purple. I think

32. Are 5 and 1 good friends?
yeah they are

33. Does 2 like 7?
they dont know each other and they're both girls

34. How did you get to know 8?
HC (Holiday College) in balakong

35. Does 3 have any pets?
nop

36. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world?
Sofie,my honay. haha. she is but I'm sexier lah. haha

37. Are you sexy??
always

38. What am I doing now?
smiling sarcastically at this particular question

vindicated

2009-06-10T15:45:00.004+08:00

So whats up peeps? Whatcha doing? (got that from Phineas and Ferb. HAHA)

Alright first of all,NAT is in the HOUSE!! We went out yesterday just to hang out and lepak with the rest. 5 of us. Elyna,Sheryll,Rachel,Natalie and I. So we went to Kota Ria due to tight budget and afterall just to lepak. Mamak was the best place to hang out and talk about everything and plainly anything you want. I only have pictures of Nat and I cause I fetched her back last and we partayed a lot together. Through webcam and also real life partaying! Haha.

Next stop,me sulking about and complaining about my daby life. Okay I have not reached the point where I would sulk about everything around me. No,I'm better. Haha. I appreciate my life. But I get frustrated easily especially the past few days during the last few days of the camp and till now. God is so testing my patience. I feel like running away from home cause my parents are trapping me at home and guess whats my curfew? 11pm? NAH. 12am? NAH. No curfew? NAHH. 10pm? YEAH!!! LIKE SHYT! What the hell is wrong with them. 10pm?! CURFEW AT 10pm?? There must be something seriously wrong with them. I'm 18!!!! HELLOOOO!! Man,I'm so frustrated! And I'm someone who needs time of my own or else I'm gonna release all my tress at home and things might just go bad. I so need to talk to my mom and gets things clear with her. It seems like we're drifting apart as a mother and daughter. Just a week ago,we talked on the phone so closely about guys and life and when I came back,its a whole new story! And I am totally blur of whats going on. What went wrong all of a sudden? Why does everything I do seem to be wrong in your eyes NOW? WHY? Is it me? Is this all my fault all of a sudden? One thing for sure,I'm so frustrated about everything. The way my mom acts right now is just so not her. Whatever in God's name happened to the mom I knew?! I know I shouldn't be saying like this,sound like a bad daughter huh? But I'm seriously frustrated and tensed up.

malas ahhh

2009-06-06T23:27:00.006+08:00

So updates about me.

I'm FREAKING LAZY!!! And SLEEPY! Feeling really sluggish after reaching home from Port Dickson and been outta mood. Having mood swings. So arguements with parents happens. Like what we learn in PD,"shyt happens"!

So yeah seriously "shyt happens" and it just had to happen today after "real bad stuff" and "shyt happens" at PD. Well it was the first time outta Balakong and i really gotta give credit to Jeevan and Roshan Nur. They both did a really good job in keeping things in right places although "shyt happens" and went outta hand a few times. Haha. It was awesome though. Seriously awesome. I tutored Book 4 and man,it's one of the heaviest book in the study circle out of 7 books. The history of the Faith on Bab and Baha'u'llah was really a fantastic story of the Baha'i Faith to tell the rest about the Greatness of This Day,Life of The Bab and Life of Baha'u'llah. I'm proud of my group. Each and everyone of them. Such a funny group I had. I love them all :)

Alright next update. I'm still confussed about what I'm gonna do. Either entering college or doing my form 6. Currently I'm really not into form 6. Its so frustrating. There's a new rule for form 6.

The school ends at 3:40 on Monday and Tuesday. 3:00 on Wednesday and Thursday. 12:30 on Friday.

See my frustration and the addtion to my confussion? And seriously I'm just not in the mood to it without interest at all. I gotta instil the interest in doing subjects totally irrelevant to my career except English Literature which is also gonna be hard for STPM level. Its a tough decision and I only have another week to consider about it. College seem to be the easiest way to achieve what I want and Form 6 is a hard way to achieve my dream with really good quality in local U. My parents took me to see a English Lecturer in UM. What she said really got me thinking hard and actually proove myself and the business world out there that 'a dream to be achieved gotta be a dream I'm gonna put my whole heart and soul to strive hard for it'. I'm not saying that college is an easy way out of things but compared to form 6,it is and easier way.

OkAY now I gotta sleep cause my eyes are really tired and morning prayers in at 8am and then Children's Class in Mentari at 10:30am. So see you guys soon. And last but not least,I love you all!!! :)

my day

2009-05-19T23:31:00.003+08:00

Okay dah lama aku tak update my blog so here it is..

Good news : I got into Seafield! :-)

Bad news : Its only 2 of us! :-( Yi Ping and I.

So about Seafield,damn i wish i could get outta that school and do my foundations in UCSI. I'm practically hating this 1 teacher specifically which goes by the name Pn.Daisy. Damn her. I dont know if she has issues dealing with racism or newcomers. Or worse,BOTH! She's always so tensed up and man,I would by all means stay away from seeing her face for the rest of my life! She humiliated me in front of the whole form 6 during orientation on my first day at Seafield. :@ Benci betul. And my hair kena from the teachers there bout 5 times already now. As far as everyone else know,i did dye my hair after spm and even before dying my hair,it wasn't black. Kinda hard to get silky and shiny black hair huh? So due to this problem,i decided i should dye my hair maybe dark brown. Almost black. But man,i so love my hair like this!
:'( What other choice do i have?!

So i made a few friends who are really good and friendly. :-D And i miss my high school so badly!! :'( Good teachers and okay rules i can bare with. But damn Seafield! I'm willing to do anything i can to get outta this school but then again maybe its all a test to me. Am i to fail and get back on track or pass with flying colours? I have no idea..

I'm facing a hard situation now in which i dont know exactly what i wanna do. Either stpm or UCSI. My parents gave me a time frame till September to think bout it real hard and come up with a decision quick.

-- Foundations in UCSI would be awesome! More specific into what i wanna do in my career which is major in English Language. And plus the course offered is really great which is English Language And Communications. :-D

-- It would cost so much for my parents. Bout 12K for the foudation for 1 year and adding up the accomadation and other stuff to buy including food would add up to 20K. So it would be real tough for my parents and i've never wished to burden my parents with my issues. Although its for my future,i do not by all means use up my parent's money in a blink.

So yeah. I need guidance at this very moment.
Oh and another thing!

I HAD MY FIRST ACCIDENT BEFORE GETTING MY LICENSE!!!

But im fine,car had a little damage but it was okay all in all. I got away from it clean and safely. Well maybe not that clean. I hurt my leg by kicking some metal thing real hard on the road. Who knows what got into Mirshal?! Haha :-D

And i'm sorry Rach and Nise to put u guys in the hands of an unlicensed driver. :-(

ponteng-ers

2009-05-12T13:17:00.003+08:00

First day of school. Monday. Yesterday. 11th of May 2009. Being a lower 6 student. Woke up at 6:30am. I looked at the mirror and said "I never thought I would be wearing school uniform again EVER after Form 5!" I managed to take breakfast and rush outside to wait for Pav. Her parents picked me up at 7:45am. So we went to Shahbandaraya. Saw the kids walking to school. Mostly Malays I guess. Well the least would be Chinese. And the Form 6 students were in white blouse and blue skirt for the girls. For boys is white shirt and white pants. So we as newbies were waiting "innocently" at the hall. It was about 8:15 when we reached the school. We saw about 15 of us from our school.

Good thing was - It reminded me so much of high school. The pavement out of the classroom where we would just hang around with friends and not bothering the teachers. All the crap we did in our classroom. I miss my high school SO much! All my friends! I took some time to just look around the school and Pav told me "it isn't so bad. It actually looks kinda nice." And yeah it does look okay. The fencing was different than other schools i've been to. Its big! Haha. And again,I miss my high school!!! :)

Bad thing was - We had to wait for another 45 minutes for the registration. And oh crap when 9am reached,all of us went to the main hall downstairs and registered ourselves. All we had to do was write down our name,previous school and give them the form we printed from computer. So about transferring to another school was another thing. They said we had to go to the office upstairs to ask about it. So we went and they asked us to fill up the Surat Tawaran form and hand it in to them. My dad had it all filled up already so I just passed it to them and they said their Pengetua is not in school today so there's no one to sign it. Damn it. Thats when the parents started getting frustrated because of the leaves they took to escape from work just to work this out as soon as possible for their daughter/son. So seriously damn it. They had some taklimat later on and well of course all of us skipped that and went back home! Haha :) Yup thats us. Ponteng-ing school is always easy and plus with parents,its even easier.

So the next day. Today. Tuesday. 12th of May 2009. I decided I should skip school because I have nothing to do with this school as I'm transferring. But changed my mind when the rest decided to go and get our forms back. So I called Shalini last night at nearly midnight and asked her if I could tag along and she said yeah. So this morning I woke up at 5:30am. Yup early. Super early. Slept at about 2am and woke up at 5:30am. Then dressed myself and went down for breakfast and rushed out again to wait for Shalini. Then we arrived at school around 7:10am. 10 minutes before school started. We were again waiting in the hallway. And Vishal came up to me and talked to me. I never knew he was in Shahbandaraya. Then the prefects asked us to line up in the for assembly. Thank God it wasn't the Perhimpunan Rasmi. So the only reason why I went to school today was to get that Surat Tawaran back with Pengetua's signature and chop. They had taklimat after taklimat for us the whole day. Man,it was boring. I was half awake. Their school rules were so stupid. "Tak boleh ade 2 orang bersama-sama. Sama ada perempuan dengan lelaki. Atau perempuan dengan perempuan. Atau lelaki dengan lelaki. Kalau 3 orang atau 4 orang,boleh." Shyt rules. Haha. So single date cannot but double date can! Double date is much more fun anyway. Haha. So we were so frustrated with the teachers and how they handled things. And guess what we did? When it was time for recess at 10:25am,we went to the office to take our letter and it seems it will only be ready tomorrow. Screw this people! What the hell man! Like shyt! I went to school today to get that damn form and I came back empty handed. (WHERE'S THE FOOD) man! Haha. So we skipped school at 10:30am. Shen Loong drove us to KFC & Pizza at Sentosa to lepak. 8 of us skipped. We are known as Ponteng-ers!! :)

'IT' got chopped!!!

2009-05-04T21:25:00.007+08:00

Yeah today "IT" got chopped!! I felt so empty and lost for some reason. It was hard having to watch every single bit fell down to the ground. I was tearing already after several years of care. Well not exactly years but it has been SOO long. I was so afraid. Because its erm.. SCARY?! And there my mom was sitting beside me and watching "IT" got chopped as well. I saw my mom in the mirror starring blankly at "IT" got chopped and falling and being swept away in the end. And I dont know if I'm satisfied with it. I would love to see your comments about it but if you tak suka,dont worry you're not the first and just be honest la. I can take anything. :) My family members were the first 3 to say "IT SUCKS!". So yeah don't worry! :D

YES "IT" is referred to MY HAIR!!!!!

Wanna see pictures of it?

At the saloon

Amount of "IT" that fell to the ground :(

close up

awesome video!!

2009-05-02T23:41:00.006+08:00

I found this really awesome video. Well actually not found but kinda read it from my friend's blog,Nancy which she got from another friend,Yi Ting. haha. But the root is,i'm posting this video up in my blog too because i SOO LOVE it!!! The arrangement of this song is awesome and 2 great musicians with passion for music made this video even more awesome!! So i upgrade the word awesome to PAWSOME!! okay i know a little lame. But nevermind. Suffering from insomnia isn't easy! haha :D

Infatuation Turning Love

2009-04-28T12:39:00.006+08:00

I so totally miss you!! Do you miss me??

Our eyes met when we were 10 I think. It was a crush back then. It has always been a crush. How many years? You do the Math. I know you don't really read my blog. If you do and if you feel the same,its gonna be an amazing feeling for both of us. You happened to be there for me whenever I needed someone. Either to make my day,for advise,to laugh along with,to share my craziness or just to talk crap and fade away into the night with a simple chat. We weren't that close back then. Somehow we started our friendship last year or maybe just this year. But all this while,it has been a crush. I'm not sure if its just a crush anymore. There's something much more than just a crush. Those times when I hesitated of being with another guy and not you when you were always in front of me kills me. I've always thought of being with you,wanting to fall in love with you. I'm just so afraid to tell you how I feel. So what should I do??? It has been kept a secret for a long time already.

Crush

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush
What a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much
Just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I've just got to know

[chorus:]
Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we could be?
Where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you?
Are you holding back
Like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going
Away
Going away

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging,
Spending time, girl, are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this
Into something that'll last
Last forever
Forever

[chorus]

Why do I keep running from the truth
(Why do I keep running)
All I ever think about is you
(All I ever think about)
You got me hypnotized
(Hypnotized)
So mesmerized
(mesmerized)
And I've just got to know

[chorus]

This song perfectly expresses my feelings for you! I do hope you read this and if you know who you are,if you feel the same then you are my Lucas Scott with no doubt! :D

Infatuation Turning Love

addicted to you

2009-04-22T00:51:00.003+08:00

Okay most of you know that I'm addicted to this series called ONE TREE HILL!!! Haha :D Well the reason why I'm addicted to it is because that this series is 'the best' I've seen! So yeah. You got my point?

Other than waiting for my Lucas Scott to always be saving my life and give my heart to him without any doubts,I just love it so much the way it's directed and produced. The writer Mark Schwahn is someone who have written a really great deal and makes it so special in One Tree Hill. Quotes are taken from all the other great writers or philosophers. Well it all has reasons but the way it is directed,it just goes on and on in many special ways. Probably for those who watch and loves it as much as I do,would understand what this crazy lunatic fan of One Tree Hill is talking about. Now the cast -- Chad Michael Murray, James Lafferty, Hillarie Burton, Bethany Joy Galeotti and Sophia Bush mainly. These are the main actors and actress who made a great significant ever since from the start. Season 1-6.

As to this addiction I have towards this series One Tree Hill,I don't think I can leave my post just like this without saying anything about it! And on the other hand,there's lots to say! Imagine from Season 1-6,you want me to give a summary? Would be quite impossible but I'll make it possible for my dear readers who already love One Tree Hill and to instill some good stuff that will make you guys watch One Tree Hill for those who don't watch it! After reading,judge it aright for I will and can take any response possible. :D

SEASON 1

It all started in a town,Tree Hill. In Tree Hill High,the bunch of jocks,the cheerleaders,the basketball players,the snobs,the famous ones,the sluts,the geeks and the stranded ones. Nathan Scott was nothing more than a great basketball player for Ravens and an ass to his girlfriend Peyton Sawyer. Nathan always took Peyton for granted because he knew that Peyton had no one left in her life other than Nathan who treated her like trash as if she was just another girl to sleep around with. The day changed when Lucas Scott came in town with Hayley James. Lucas and Nathan who were brothers that shared the same father never treated each other as brothers. They despite each other. But they both had something in common which brought them together into the same world which is basketball. They loved basketball and think of it as their future which also they inherrited from their father,Dan Scott. Dan left Lucas's mom,Karen Roe when she was expecting Lucas. He had Deb Scott later on as his wife as she was expecting Nathan. So the drama all continues. It was when Lucas was repairing Peyton's car,The Comet when Lucas met Peyton's eyes and immediately fell in love with her. Now the two boys' lives collide when a twist of fate puts Lucas on Nathan's team and the half-brothers compete, not only for control of the court, but also for the heart of Nathan's beautiful girlfriend,Peyton. Lucas blows his first Varsity game at the River Court where his dreams as a basketball player was achieved since he was young. Keith Scott who was always there for Lucas and his mom since Dan left them both consoled Karen into supporting Lucas to join Tree Hill High Ravens,the basketball team. Frustrated by Lucas' growing population,Nathan searches for Lucas' weak spot, and finds it in Haley. Meanwhile, Peyton is furious with Lucas for submitting her drawings to the local newspaper without her knowledge. As Nathan and Dan never really had a father-son relationship with love. It was rough with Deb too. So Peyton went back to Lucas to rekindle their relationship but she found Brooke Davis,her best friend since they were 8. As soon as Peyton figured her feelings for Lucas,Brooke was already hitting on Lucas. It was a triangle love between this 3. Nathan took advantage by getting closer to Haley to bring Lucas down but instead later on,he fell in love with her. The 2 love birds got married soon after a while of dating.

SEASON 2

In this season,Brooke found another guy who happened to be her neighbour. And they started their inexclusive relationship pretty soon leaving behind Lucas. Peyton and Lucas were just friends seeing as Brooke was their friend too. Later on,Brooke realized her feelings were strong for Lucas and he also knew that Brooke was the one for him. He fought to get her back. He never stepped back. Pretty soon,they were together. Their relationship was so sweet and all about fun. At first glance, it may seem as if the residents of the picturesque Tree Hill have it made. Take Nathan, Lucas, Peyton, Brooke and Haley for starters. They've got youth, beauty, brains and... basketball. But, in a town like this, nothing is what it seems. Like the roots of an ancient tree, the destinies of these five are deeply twisted and tangled by betrayal, passion and secrecy.

SEASON 3

Season three finds everyone three months later, with many questions still to be answered. Entering senior year, Lucas finds his life as messy as ever as he balances his feelings for Brooke, with a recent summer that has drawn him closer to Peyton. With basketball season quickly approaching, his attempts to reconcile with Nathan grow more urgent. And since Dan stopped paying for his medication, Lucas searches for a way to treat his heart condition while continuing to keep it a secret from Karen. This is when really bad things happened in Tree Hill High. Jimmy got shot! Keith got shot! Who shot who?? Watch and find out!!

SEASON 4

Returning for it's fourth season to the town of Tree Hill, this drama revolves around the lives of two young men, Lucas and Nathan, who have little in common aside from their love for hoops and the fact that they share the same father. The inhabitants of Tree Hill have witnessed Lucas' metamorphosis from loner to high school basketball star, Nathan and Haley's troubled marriage, and Peyton and Brooke's tumultuous friendship. While the teenagers struggle to find their places in the world, the adults in Tree Hill continue to deal with the residue of decisions they made years ago. Lucas and Peyton found rekindled their first love and manage to pull things through together.

SEASON 5

The fifth season of "One Tree Hill" will be unprecedented in the annals of television drama, as the show leaps forward four years. Season four ended as the young characters graduated high school and season five begins post-college, four years later. Some of the characters have found success while others have failed. Some are the same, some are very different. And while their storylines will actively move forward, the show will also dip into the past, returning to incidents and events of the last four years, sometimes for a moment or a scene, other times for an entire episode. Its amazing how Peyton and finds a way back to Lucas and in the end,they made it through. Through ups and downs,they still manage to be together because of their first love.

SEASON 6

The show leaps into it's sixth season with more drama, mystery, romance and tragedy than ever before. Lucas is about to embark on a journey with the woman he loves, Brooke finds herself stuck in a battle for her company with her devious mother, and it seems as though Nathan and Haley are finally finding their way back to their dreams. With lives in the balance and friendships at stake, this season will find the residents of Tree Hill facing some of their biggest challenges yet while flashbacks to events in the four years past will continue to fill gaps in the lives of the friends. The movie ends by Lucas becoming a producer of his very own books that he wrote in and turning into a film. It all ends well with the sound of the hearbeat of Peyton's baby with Lucas!

WOOHOO!! The End.

we are the world

2009-04-13T15:33:00.006+08:00

This song always gives me goosebumbs everytime I hear it! It is such a wonderful song i'll never forget in my life! Such a meaningful song that I can sing till the day I die. Such passion in the legendary musicians that inspires me a lot. In every second of our lives,if each and everyone of us would remember this song in our hearts and sing to it,the world will be ONE!

I believe one person in the world is enough to change the world. It is such that great musicians like this took a big step towards bringing eternal peace to the world. This song moves my heart and gives me great hope and understanding upon reaching Oneness of Mankind in our world!

Such an old song that brings a lot of memories to me. Imagine those elder than us. The dreams,the hopes,the visions they had during their time for our future. Lets all sing to it
"We are the world. We are the children. We are the ones who make a brighter day,so lets start giving. There's a choice we're making. We're saving our own lives. It's true we'll make a better day,just you and me".

We are the world. We are the future. We move the world. We make this world significant. We make a change. We are in the forefront. We create the future.
So come on lets hold each others' hands and shine brighter as youths ,as what we are to build a better tomorrow!

a dream i had

2009-04-10T23:44:00.005+08:00

Its about a dream I had this afternoon when I was laying down my couch in the hall for about half an hour while waiting for my mom to come back home from fetching my younger brother. So this is what happened.

-- I saw Zac Farro in front my house distributing flyers in my neighbourhood. I was so totally stunt for seconds and I wasted those seconds real bad by just watching him put the flyer into my mailbox and starring blurly at him without saying a word. Then it kinda rang in my head somewhere that "Man,thats ZAC FARRO!! The drummer from the band PARAMORE!!!!". And bang,I thought I was gonna faint but hell no way I was gonna miss that chance! So I spoke to him like really casually and I saw a glimpse of HAYLEY WILLIAMS in the background of the picture!!! I saw her awesome PURPLE hair!! I felt like I was really gonna faint at that momment! Then I opened my gate and quickly ran to Zac and said "hey,wait for me aite? I'm gonna get my camera down." Then I saw him waving at Hayley and Josh Farro to come over my house and man,I had goosebumps and butterflies in my tummy the whole time. So I ran upstairs and was too nervous that I forgot totally where I kept my camera and damn,those seconds I wasted again!! Imagine the thoughts running through my mind. PARAMORE UP CLOSE!!! IN MY HOUSE!!! Its what i've always wanted ever since I found this awesome Tennessee band called PARAMORE!!!!!! :D I would never miss this opportunity,right? If I did,man I'm such a waste!! So I ran down back with all my heart and soul to meet up with HAYLEY WILLIAMS!!!! And JOSH FARRO!!! So I reached downstairs and saw the gate wide open and NO ONE was there! I was searching for them soo badly. I went outside and searched till the end of the street and saw NO ONE! A couple of seconds later,my mom came back and I told her everything about it. She did laughed and mocked me the whole time but I did not lose my faith just then. I started wondering "was it a dream or was it real?" Cause it sounded and looked pretty unreal/fantasy-ish but somehow I wanted soo badly to believe that IT IS REAL and I gotta see them! So at that momment I told my mom "Ma,I'm gonna search for them around the neighbourhood". So I took off quickly with my bicycle and imagine how fast I rode that bike! As fast as a speed of light?! Haha. Nah I can't reach that speed lah. It was damn fast and boomb!!! --

The phone rang and I woke up!! Like arghhh!!! And I found myself waking up from the couch and I realized it was all a dream and till now I wished I never woke up from that dream! It was something memorable to me,to my life!!

PARAMORE is a band unlike any other bands for me. Something just really catches my attention about them! Its a band I can really connect to. I highly respect and adore Hayley Nichole Williams. You can check her out. Her history and her story of life. There's always something about her I feel connected. And there are many reasons of why I love this band so much!!

I actually almost cried watching this! Watch it,for those who love PARAMORE!!! :D

|;:=- please read the letter -=:;|

2009-04-05T20:32:00.006+08:00

Please read the letter that I wrote!

Nat/Deyy

Yeah that's exactly what I call you everytime. I know you're at NS now so I'm hoping real hard for you to come back home again this weekend to read this post and we can share more love! Haha =)
I can't really describe how much I love you as my friend but I'm just so thankful and greatful to have met you when we were in 4 Science 4. You should know how much I love you up to now for everything we've gone through together. Even so I will still tell you that I love you so so much!! You know a lot about me and I guess I do too. We share a lot about our lives to give advise and courage to each other. All this stories we've shared with each other brought our friendship this far and I hope it will still go on till the end of time because you're one of my loved one in this world that I can always count on and plus we stay so close to each other. Hanging out in the park and just talking was amazing! One of the memories I can only share with certain people. I will forever remember the times where we never stoped talking even a minute for hours at the park when we're suppose to be 'exercising'. Well we found the mouth-exercise so I guess we did exercise! Haha :D
Dey,I just so love you and am really appreaciating our friendship every single day. And wishing for you to have a great life ahead with JQ. I know he's the guy for you! No doubt about that. In this journey you're heading now,I'm here for you always! True love always wins and great courage is needed and I'm sure you'll make it through! :)

Elyna/Elylalala

I'm just thankful again that we met at the same class in 4 Science 4. Didn't know you well back then till the conflict was over between a few of us and everything was clear. We had a bond not much could have out of a friendship. You know I love you and I know you love me too! Haha. Seriously I do miss the times we had together during Form 4 & 5 mostly Form 5 because thats when our gang of friends were really established and we became so close and still standing till today.I would do anything if I could go back to those times when we were in Form 4/5. Those were the best years of my life with you guys. And I guess what is most common between us both is that we're such a Rockstar for Partays!! Partays are just our thing to Rock! Haha. We go high easily and I seriously love your hyperness during partays cause I can always partay with a friend like you. For that,I will forever remember such a great friend like you!

Sheryll/Sherr

I just love you la! Those late night chats we always have and going super high talking about really random stuff! You're such a good friend. And oh,you're a great friend to talk about love stuff. I gotta remind you to get your butt in Australia fast and marry your Anthony Callea! Seriously I don't want you to go away for 1 month+ to somewhere so far away but I want you to get that super hawt guy so that I can help at your awesome wedding with an awesome hawt guy! Haha =) Just kidding la. That joke between you and Chawnie was damn funny la. That convo was super funny. Well all I have to say to you is again I'm thankful we met in the same class when we were in 4 Science 4!

Rachel/Rach

Man,I soo love you! You were really the closest friend I had during high school. And I guess after high school,life doesn't stop there and we've been so outta touch ever since. I do understand your situation although I'm not in it. You know most about me among all my friends I have. All the secrets we told each other was only between us and you should know that you're among the few people on Earth that I trust and that knows me deeply. We have gone through a lot during high school. We had arguements quite a few times. I got upset with you easily but seriously it was because you were so close to me that that friendship was something I can never afford to loose. Our friendship was too much for me to do anything to even break it apart by an inch. You must know how much I love our friendship. There were so much stuff I told you about my life that I never ever told anyone. This would sound a little mushy but bear with it. Haha. I told you before that after the conflict I had with this friend in Form 4,I met such a great friend which actually changed my life and made me who I am today. For that particular friend I met in 4 Science 4,I never turned back to who I was in the past and made a few right choices in life which till today,I'm praise the Lord for such a wonderful guidance in my life. And yes you are the friend I'm talking about! We've gone through too much to stop now and look back. This friendship we share will be a continuation of a story in my journey of life. It's hard for me to really go along with someone so well who's not in the same religion as I am but with you,I never felt that way. We always had the same vision towards life. I could still remember when everyone would say "I don't think 1 person can change the world" and both of us had the same opinion that "1 person can change the world". It may seem like a total simple topic but it was one of the deep conversations we always have that I appreaciated our friendship so badly! I can't exactly tell what was so special about our friendship but I felt it was a one-in-a-million friendship I have in my 18 years of living! Thanks to you,thanks to God and thanks to just everyone who made this friendship happen.

And what you're going through right now surely is hard but stay strong. The Rachel I know is so strong and her will to go on was something I respected highly. You're more than you even know! You're Rachel and you can do it!

This song is to you guys! The lysics is more than enough for what I would tell all of you. I love you guys!! =)

admiration

2009-03-26T14:55:00.008+08:00

Some features and stuff I admire/adore and so totally wish I have!! Haha :D

TAYLOR SWIFT!!!!

The sexy eyes! I do love her eyes. Her eyes kecil but very rare to find. She's gorgeous!! And her curls! Just love her. Her country songs and her!!! What else can you say. Taylor Swift just makes my day!!
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HAYLEY WILLIAMS!!!!!

The hair!!!! Hayley Williams is my idol! Seriously I love her hair and style. Her skin complexion is very natural and good. She's not the type of artist/singer who puts on a lot of make up. Her best make up is on her eyes. Her eye shadows are always outstanding due to the color coordinated hair color! And its awesome! She has so many styles and ways of putting her eye shadow which stands out and represents HAYLEY WILLIAMS!!!! :D

No one does the hair fling like HAYLEY WILLIAMS!!!!!!!

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PEYTON SAWYER!!!!

Peyton Sawyer from One Tree Hill. Yeah. What I admire about her is her eyebrows. Very few people in the world gets that kinda shape and Peyton has it. I love the shape of her eyebrows. And her lips. I love her lips. The lucious lips and not those pouty lips like Angelina Jolie. Haha.

And her legs. She has a very sexy legs. I noticed while watching 6 seasons of One Tree Hill! Haha. Seriously I love her legs. Long and thin (not that thin). The legs of a model. =)

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KATE VOEGELE

Kate Voegele. I like her lips! Not much people know she's a singer. But seriously google her and listen to her music!! She's an awesome singer I would really recommend you guys! She's young and talented. Not so famous but she's damn good!!!! :D

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MEGAN FOX!!!!

Yes dear friends,Megan Fox!!! The super HOT Megan Fox! Seriously who wouldn't die to have a body like hers. I so damn love her body! Utter Hotness and Sexiness. Haha.

Other than just her body. I also love her eyes. I believe its natural grey. Work out to get that body,man!!

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Okay thats it with features. Now it's gonna be stuff that I admire/adore and would really want to have!!! :P

Okay I just plainly LOVE this shoes!!!! I would die to have them! This shoes are awesome!!! :D

What about this? What do you think? Well I still love the first one better but this one is awesome as well. The first one was my fav. because the color coordination is in accordance to the Original Paramore CD which is White,Black and Orange! It is just awesome!!

I find this totally cute because they even have mugs of Paramore!!! Haha. I would at least want one of these. Cute.

The wallets are nice!!! Really rather than Bodyglove,Billabong or Quicksilver..I would so totally buy this!!!! Hehe.

Lastly,they even have comforter's of PARAMORE!!!!!!! AHHHH!!! I want something out of Paramore!!! Haha. Seriously a comforter! Wahleou! =)

End of Mirshal's admiration.

AKU LOVE PARAMORE!!!!!!

simply-ing say

2009-03-25T15:28:00.000+08:00

It was just so funny so I wanted to blog about my younger brother who is dearly close to me. Haha. And he's so funny! He makes my day at times. And also ruins my day on the other days. Haha. But I love him with all my heart and soul. My family definitely comes first in my life no matter what happens. Love within family is always guaranteed and unquestionable. I know for sure whether something goes wrong or right,the love within family stays forever! The love that my parents have for us 3 siblings will definitely without a doubt last until we acsend to the Abha Kingdom. Okay deep. But yeah I love my family so much! =)

So yeah I was chatting with my brother while he was playing his PS2. Damn a 8 year old kid got that!! arghh! haha. So yeah I was teasing him and asking him a lot of questions about the game as I (Mirshal) tak pernah main this kinda game so aku kacau dia la. And he would always say "you must watch from the start la,don't ask so many questions!" Its so funny. :D

And so I continued chatting with him. My mom was taking her nap downstairs. I teased my brother more and he said "you simply-ing say la!" Haha. It was suppose to be simply saying and he changed it into simply-ing say pronounced as (simpling say). Haha. I had a great laugh and teased him more. Everytime he said something,I would say "don't simply-ing say la". Haha. =) Man,I love my brother! Haha.

Let your vision be world embracing...

2009-03-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

The earth is but one country and mankind its citizens.
-Baha'u'llah-

I would like to personally take the virtue UNITY in this post corresponding to the amazing unity among the Baha'is during our new year,Nawruz. It was wonderful and unforgettable that moved my heart and soul. This are one of those memory that I would treasure as it draws me closer to the Baha'i Faith. The spirit and vision we share amongst brings us all together in ONE common Faith and ONE family!

Search. Love. Knowledge. Unity. Contentment. Wonderment. True Poverty and Absolute Nothingness.
These are the Seven Valleys that holds us together tightly. Some called these Seven Valleys and others, Seven Cities. And they say that until the wayfarer taketh leave of self, and traverseth these stages, he shall never reach to the ocean of nearness and union, nor drink of the peerless wine.

A lover is he who is chill in hell fire;
A knower is he who is dry in the sea. [Persian mystic poem]

I have been so moved since that day of our Nawruz celebration. Baha'is all over came down to A&W at PJ to celebrate together. The spirit of Baha'is on New Year were overwhelming! One of the most amazing spirit i've ever seen in my life. One of things where I voice my thanks to my parents for introducing such a wonderful Faith to me. One of those unforgettable memory. One of the quality inside me I can never put away. It was just amazing. You gotta experience it to know how it feels. Find out what who you really are inside? Ask yourself.

Kindle the fire of love and burn away all things,
Then set thy foot into the land of the lovers.

12/12/12

2009-03-19T00:03:00.000+08:00

I wanted to blog specially for 12/12/12. I have been telling everyone my dream about 12/12/12 being my wedding day. I have been thinking a lot about this after SPM. Especially after my results now. Wanna hear the news about my wedding??

Awesome! I mean seriously its gonna be awesome talking about my wedding. Wearing my wedding gown and walking down the aisle step by step and gaze upon my to-be-husband standing with the all-loving eyes. The time where every bride would wish that time stood still and the world would just revolve between the bride and groom. And just like every other bride in the world,that is something I would wish for so badly. So I already have a list of people who are obligated to attend and help with the wedding..

Sheryll - Event Management is gonna help you plan out my wedding.

Wye Cheung - Chef is gonna help you be my caterer for my wedding.

Elyna - Business is gonna help you by helping me with the finance for the wedding. So you're gonna be like my secretary.

Rach - Digital Animation? Hmm.. Ahh I know. Help me with the invitation cards or anything else. Use your creativity for your best friend's wedding.

Nat - Hotel Management.. Err.. Oh aku tak tau la. Do anything to make your best friend's wedding awesome.

Elyna,Sheryll,Nat & Rach - You guys know my dream. Make this wedding a memory that can never be forgotten for your best friend!!

Charmaine - Doctor? Nobody's gonna be sick on that day. At least I hope not. So maybe my Maid of Honour?

To-Be-Hubby - I will love you with all my life. Lets make our epic love story an awesome one to tell our kids in future. [I will love you till my dying day]

Okay the bad news? 12/12/12 not gonna happen!! :( I know its sad and disappointing. Imagine how would I feel. :"( Yeah I'm crying in the inside. What can I do? The course I'm gonna do takes 3 years to achieve degree. Including my foundations which is Form 6 is gonna take up to 2 years. Count that!
May 2009 - Lower 6
Jan 2010 - Upper 6
March 2011 - STPM result
May 2011 - Uni for degree
End of 2014 - Bachelor (Hons) in Enlish Language

12/12/12 isn't gonna happen!! FULL STOP

words of compassion?

2009-03-15T17:00:00.000+08:00

So I dont plan to say anything about the results I got.

You wanna know it,gotta find out personally from me. Isn't something proud that I would blog about it.

The next step is much more important and confusing. Wanting to study the course you wish for and achieving your dreams isn't as easy as some wise tale telling "work hard,you'll get what you paid for". Obviously it isn't easy. And nothing is impossible at the same time. How much you would go through to achieve what you want? How hard would you work for to achieve? Would you be able to go sail through with everything? Questions thunder in my head and lead to confussion and maybe a little tress. As this questions aren't easy to answer,it isn't hard/impossible to answer either.

What we have done,what we do and what we're about to do is a question which the human mind might not be able to explain in details. But the brain and will to do keeps on going without our realization. Ever thought that you can't do something and did it excellently in the end? I go through those surprises myself. It is amazing when you find out stuff about yourself that you wouldn't even expect.

-Expect the Unexpected-

Our capacities and capabilities are far beyond our reach. So don't put a stop to what you wish or desire. Strive to achieve. Lets deeds not words.

emotions!!

2009-03-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

Emotions are mixed up right now!

LESS than 10 hours!

Good or Bad?!

Who Knows?

Anyone up for a SLEEPLESS NIGTH?? =/

Allright,so we're gonna get what we deserve to get and no one could change the results right now eventhough i'm still hoping for a miracle to happen at the last moments. I guess i'm gonna pee in my pants before getting the result! Or crash a car! Or involve in an accident! Or just somehow avoid getting that result!

A Life Changing Experience is about to be told in 8 hours+- !!!

Okay,a bit too dramatic? Haha. =D

Gotta be ready for more emotions to come tomorrow!

Whether good or bad,it's gonna be another emotion to challenge in life!

BEST OF LUCK!!!

Being A Bahai

2009-03-07T14:27:00.000+08:00

This is one of the things where I enjoy doing throughout the whole year of 365 days! Its amazing that Baha'is get the privelage to fast for 19 days before our Near Year on the 21st of March. So currently we're fasting for 6 days already. Yayy!! Although the amount and kinds of food we get to eat when we break our fast keeps running through our mind,the joy of sharing this 19 days of Fasting with millions of other Baha'is from all over the world is a complete encouragement for me to keep going and be strong. The amount of Baha'i friends I have when I step out of my doorstep is simply just amazing.

19 Days of Fasting is significant to each and every Baha'i. The reason 19 days was choosen was because 19 is our holy number. Like having Nineteen Day Feast (NDF). Of course there are exceptionals for certain conditions. In this 19 days is when we detach ourselves from material needs. From sunrise till sunset. The best moment of this 19 days of fasting would definetely be the breaking of fast! We organise the breaking of fast by each family of the community hosting their homes. Its absolutely and simply an unconditional love where you can always feel and be around with. This love we share unites us all and draw us to the same direction as we all have ONE exact goal in life!

How much I would wanna thank God and my parents for such an amazing religion that I have clunged to.

The Baha'i Faith. Is a religion where I investigated myself when I reached 15 that save my life once,twice,thrice and forever will be!

What tongue can voice my thanks to Thee?!

How much I appreaciate being a Baha'i in Malaysia is something extraordinary. Its amazing that I get the privelage to through my life until the day I die as a Baha'i. Millions of Baha'i friends all over the world hold hands together to succeed as a Baha'i in the eyes of our own and the eyes of others around us.

With this I end my gratitude of being a Baha'i and to have choosen the right path in life with a prayer and a song for every single soul out there.

To my dear Baha'i friends,we're together in this and no matter what may come accross our path,We Are One!

Okay although this song is to shape Europe,lets take it as "We will together shape the World!"

≈World Religion Day≈

2009-02-24T01:16:00.000+08:00

Science,Religion & Development As The Foundation For Global Prosperity

So that was the theme of the discourse on 22nd February at UEM Academy,PJ. Those who were there had a great opportunity of deliberation on this issue with the 3 speakers Dr. K. J. John, Prof. Dato Dr. Ab. Rahim Selamat and Dr. Irene Leong.

As a vision of society,the relentless pusuit of wealth in an impersonal marketplace and the frenetic experimentation with various forms of self-indulgence are being rejected as irrelevant to the awakening of hopes and energies of individuals in all parts of the planet. It is no longer possible to maintain the belief that the approach to social and economic progress to which the materialistic conception of life has given rise is capable of leading humanity to the tranquility and prosperity which it seeks.

The difficulties encountered during almost five decades of development work, particularly the inability to elicit the involvement of the very people that such efforts purport to serve, directly speaks to the need for a new development concepts and models. Existing development strategies and programs fall far short of taking into account those essential spiritual and social dimensions of life so fundamental to human welfare.

Civilization itself does not arise merely from material progress,but rather is defined by and founded upon the ideals and shared beliefs that weld society together. It is this dimension of existence that enriches,ennobles and provides direction to human being. It is this dimension of life that unlocks the creative capacities within human consciousness and safeguards human dignity.

When spiritual principles are fully intergrated into community development activities,the ideas,insights and practical measures that emerge are likely to be those that promote self-reliance and preserve human honor,thereby avoiding habits of dependency and progressively eliminating conditions of gross economic disparity. Recognition of the inseperable connection between material and spiritual aspects of life therefore gives rise to a fundamentally different notion of development!

Modern science looks at science in a non-integrated and non-holistic way.

"Modern science breaks Humpty Dumpty into parts to study him but does not know how to put Humpty Dumpty back together again!"

For that,we need morality and good values found in all religious thinking and being. Spirituality is the inner motivation and drive that makes of us truly religous. True spirituality enables one to observe a life integrated for integrity.

-Dr. K. J. John-

Science,religion and development are inseparable,integrated,hollistic in a continuum not polarized or dichotomous. Each is not more or less important than the others. What we need is more of Rethinking and Redoing or Reengineering about our perception and mistaken certainties about these aspects of life to be wholesome individuals and society.

"Buat baik jangan sekali-sekali,Buat jahat berpada-pada!"

"You must agree to disagree!!"

-Prof. Dato Dr. Ab. Rahim Selamat-

In the light of global developments over the last decade,it is not possible to dismiss the complementary roles of science and religion in the development of societies. The yearning for peace,unity and well-being of our nation has been a driving force behind the evolvement of our educational system which led to a laudable effort to develop a harmonious nation anchored on a belief in and devotion to God.

"A paradigm/shift in the way we think and behave is needed."

"Individual Transformation --> Social Transformation!"

A twofold purpose is needed - Take charge of our own intellectual and Spiritual Development.

The main thrust of education is seen as the instrument to produce a 'good man' - not only to equip individuals with appropiate knowledge and skills but also to produce responsible citizens with strong moral and ethical values who will contribute towards the well-being of society and nation.

It is possible to speak of religion the same way as one speaks of science and then explore the interactions of what that guides to human progress!

-Dr. Irene Leong-

Man is organic with the world. His inner life moulds the environment and is itself also deeply affected by it. We need a change of heart,a reframing of all our conceptions and a new orientation of our activities. The inward life of man as well as his outward environment have to be reshaped.

♥♫ Moulin Rouge ♫♥

2009-02-20T16:14:00.000+08:00

In 1899, a young British writer, Christian (Ewan McGregor), moves to the Montmartre district of Paris with few possessions beyond histypewriter to try to establish himself in the Bohemian culture. By luck, he encounters a musical troupe led by Toulouse-Lautrec (John Leguizamo) that is attempting to present a new play for Harold Zidler (Jim Broadbent), the owner of the cabaret, the Moulin Rouge. Christian's writing helps to finalize the show, entitled "Spectacular! Spectacular!", and the troupe take Christian to the cabaret to present the work itself to its star courtesan, Satine (Nicole Kidman), in private to win her favour. However, the same night, Zidler has arranged for Satine to spend the night with the wealthy Duke (Richard Roxburgh) who is looking to buy the cabaret. Through miscommunication, Satine mistakes Christian for the Duke, and the two depart to her private chambers. She begins to seduce him despite his insistence he is only there to present his script, but the two slowly realize they have fallen in love with each other. The Duke returns, and discovers Christian and Satine in a compromising position. Satine quickly states that Christian is only there to present a play. With the help of the troupe, Satine, and Zidler, Christian quickly improvises a new plot to "Spectacular! Spectacular!" as a thinly-covered veil of their current situation, with an evil maharajah attempting to woo the love of an Indian courtesan who is actually in love with a poor sitar player. The Duke, unable to see through the show's meaning, agrees to finance the show, but only if he is allowed to continue to see Satine. Unfortunately for the Duke, Satine and Christian continuously make up excuses as to why he can't see her.

Over the next several days, the entire Moulin Rouge troupe prepares for the show as the club is turned into a theater. Christian and Satine attempt to evade the Duke to keep their love alive by pretending to be practicing their lines as well as the "secret song" that the sitar player and courtesan share, but the Duke insists that he can watch. On a day that the Duke has invited Satine to his place for the evening, Satine insists that she must practice her lines with Christian, and they depart. Later Nini-Legs-In-The-Air (Caroline O'Connor), a jealous courtesan, points out to the Duke that the play is obviously a metaphor for Christian, Satine, and the Duke. The Duke takes drastic steps to make sure that Christian and Satine are separated, demanding that Zidler let Satine spend the night with him. On that night, Satine refuses the Duke's advances and flees to Christian; the two plan to run away together. The Duke reports this to Zidler, and states that unless Satine is his, he will have Christian killed. Zidler tells this to Satine and he finally tells her that she is dying from tuberculosis. Satine sadly makes her way back to Christian's loft and claims that she wants the Duke's wealth more than Christian's love. Heartbroken, Christian follows Satine back to the Moulin Rouge and calls for her, only to be beaten by two men and refused entry.

On the opening night of "Spectacular! Spectacular!", Toulouse-Lautrec tries to remind Christian of the Bohemian way — truth, beauty, freedom, and love — and that he truly loves Satine as she does him, but Christian is too depressed to listen. As the show starts, Christian approaches Satine, trying to buy her love using money he made by selling his typewriter just as the Duke had done, but Satine tries to send him away, fearing that the Duke's bodyguard will kill him. Suddenly, the two find themselves in the spotlight on stage, momentarily confusing the performers and audience. Zidler quickly improvises, stating that Christian is the sitar player in disguise and trying to make the show go on, but Christian walks off stage. As he leaves the theater, Toulouse-Lautrec shouts from the rafters "The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return." Satine realizes what she has done and sings the "secret song," showing Christian that she truly loves him. Christian rejoins her on stage and joins her in singing the song, angering the Duke. The Duke's bodyguard attempts to kill Christian, but the courtesans and Bohemians stop him; the Duke then tries to finish the job himself, only to be stopped by Zidler, who disarms the Duke so true love can prevail. The lovers are able to finish their song without incident to a standing ovation; the Duke storms away from the Moulin Rouge. As the performers get ready for taking a bow, Satine finally succumbs to her illness, and dies in Christian's arms. A year later, with the Moulin Rouge having closed down, Christian, still mournful over his loss, decides to write the story of the love shared between himself and Satine, which was her dying wish.

Lady Marmalade

This is the song he sang to her when he met her personally and she fell in love with him right away

This is the song where they fall in love deeply

The end!! =)

>> A Walk To Remember <<

2009-02-18T03:11:00.000+08:00

Each Spring in the little port town of Beaufort, North Carolina, when the wind smells of pine and salt and the sea, Landon Carter remembers his senior year at Beaufort High and Jamie Sullivan, the girl who changed his life.

Jamie was the last person Landon was likely to fall for. Serious and conservative, she was as far from cool as she could possibly be, and didn’t care. The daughter of the town’s Baptist minister, Jamie was not afraid of letting people know that her faith was the most important part of her life, even if it cost her some friends. Landon hung with the in-crowd -- an aimless, moody, reckless guy who breezed through school on looks and bravado. He had no plans, no future and no faith in himself.

One night a prank that he and his buddies set up goes terribly wrong and lands a kid in the hospital. As punishment, Landon must tutor a young student at a poor school and participate in the Drama Club’s Spring play two activities the principal hopes will teach him some humility. They also happen to throw him into close contact with Jamie. Clearly in over his head, Landon is forced to ask her for help.

Soon, against his own expectations, Landon finds himself falling in love with this outwardly plain girl who possesses a passion for life he never imagined possible. But it isn’t easy. For reasons of her own, Jamie does everything she can to run away from romance until it becomes impossible to deny.

Being together will test everything that they believe in. Most of all, it will test the power of love and faith to transforms a life into something worth living.

Landon

Jamie

Being a jerk around his friends

During the play was when he fell for her

Landon and Jamie in love

Landon proposing to Jamie

I was and am still taken away by this movie everytime I watch it! Never get sick of it no matter how many times I watched it. It shows so much passion and love that it takes my breath away. How much Landon has put effort into giving a miracle to the girl he never expected to fall in love with moves me. Each moment of this movie is worth watching!

God,if this is a fairytale I wish for,let this wish be true!!! =)

=Love is like the wind. You can't see but you can feel!=

Valentines '09

2009-02-16T01:45:00.000+08:00

Tell me when will you be mine
Tell me quando quando quando
We can share a love divine
Please don't make me wait again

When will you say yes to me
Tell me quando quando quando
You mean happiness to me
Oh my love please tell me when

Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Whoa lover tell me when
Oh darling tell me when
Oh come on tell me when
Yea tell me when

Thats a Valentines Day dedicated song to everyone even though it's late now for Valentines but I was waiting for the pictures so it took me a while. Sorry =)

First it was dinner at Pizza vs Satay!
We had a blast there together. 9 of us. Suppose to be only 8 but i surprised Rach!
Jq, Nat, Sheryll, Ji Kin, Rach, Yi Wei, Wye Cheung, Chwan Chong and ME.
So we ordered Valentines meal for couples except the lonely guy,Ji Kin.

Oh no it's NOT Chwan Chong showing middle finger! It just looks like that. Haha

My Valentines gifts!

Then after dinner,we split up into 2 groups.
Ji Kin, Jq, Nat and Sheryll went to the Oncidium event.
Rach, Yi Wei, Wye Cheung, Chwan Chong and me went to MCD.

PARAMORE!!!

Rach and I

Wye Cheung and Yi Wei

Chwan Chong and I

Rach having fun? haha

Yi Wei and I

Wye Cheung and I. his funny face argh!

So after MCD,we went to just walk around the lakeside.
It was romantic!! I wished we were there longer! =)
KC and Jason joined us as well.
We watched the scenary and took random pictures.

Shadow of KC, Rach and I

This was the last picture. Rach and I again! =)

We had a great Valentines that day!
I love you guys a lot!!! <333

HAPPY VALENTINES!! (maybe belated but i dont wanna put that cause it doesnt sound good) haha =D

be thankful that i'm finally doing someone's tag! =)

2009-02-13T00:18:00.000+08:00

Directions: Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don't forget to leave a comment ("You're tagged!"), and to read your blog, you can't tag a person who tagged you. Since you can't tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.

16 FACTS ABOUT ME:

1) I love to be loved
2) I talk to myself a lot
3) I love chocolates and ice-creams!
4) I have gain weight over the past months by 3/4 kg's
5) I have a passion of getting hold of the camera and snapping good pictures
6) I've always dreamed of getting on stage as a singer
7) I wanna get married on 12/12/12
8) I went for threading today
9) I miss my family soo much when i'm away
10) I love PARAMORE like crazy!!
11) I would give up anything at any possibilities to get close to PARAMORE!!
12) Music is the way i express my feelings
13) I want my husband to at least know how to play 1 musical instrument and must be able to sing for me
14) I miss sleepovers and shopping
15) My last year in high school was the best part of my life =)
16) I am Mirshal!!

I'm tagging : Yu Yuen
Andrea
Soo Lee

Okay thats all i have. haha =)

happenings!

2009-01-30T14:49:00.000+08:00

It hurts.
Its painful.
You left a scar.
It would have stopped.
I feel deeply knowing you felt the same.
My heart hurts that it screams so loud till I could hear.

This will stop now.
It is time to forget the past.
It is time to move on with my life.
Radio that plays great music to help me stay.

Though it shall be my enemy to play the wrong songs.

HEALED!! =)

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Service at Tanjung Malim and Bidor!

Went to Tanjung Malim with Uncle Aru and Uncle Nathan. Stayed at Uncle Veanu's house for 1 night. Met a couple of youths of my age and got along with them quite well. Stayed at their house for 2 nights as they asked me to.

Met a monkey on the rooftop! =)

The youths I stayed with at Tanjung Malim

NDF at Tanjung Malim

So the next day,I went to Uncle Thiaga's house at Tapah. Uncle Veanu drove me there because they were on their way there as well.
At Uncle Thiaga's place,I couldn't do any service as uncle and aunty was busy with their business at shop and they barely had time to talk to me and discuss about our plans. Had 1 night there. The next day,Uncle send me to Taman Ridvan.

At Taman Ridvan,I tutored Book 3 in English for 3 indians from Ipoh. It was fun! Met the Asli's there! =)

Sita with the 3 kids -Roshan,Mawi,Rosalina-

-Rosli--Zul--Batem--Man-
teaching us some songs that they created on their own

Main blanket game

My book 3 group

from left to right: Batem,Man,Zul,Rosli dan saye!

Book 3!!

Kat kitchen. Liva tengah masak.

great view from Taman Ridvan

9 pointed star on the gate!

Jungle

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-Journey Back KK-

So as promised here it is. The journey back home to KK (Kota Kemuning) from Tapah.

Firstly,I spent my last day at Taman Ridvan,Tapah. Around 11:30am,Uncle Thiaga came to fetch me to either train station or bus station depending on available tickets. Train tickets were all sold out for the whole day as it was the beginning of festive season where people would start travelling to their 'kampungs'. Uncle asked if I really wanted to go back home. Firmly,I said 'Yes Uncle'. So we stopped at Uncle Thiaga's house and filled my tummy with lunch before I leave.

So uncle dropped me at the bus station at Tapah.
Firstly,he just dropped me there and told me to find my way to Bidor. Secondly,there i stood holding 3 bags all by myself!!! I stood there waiting for the bus to Bidor to arrive with everyone starring at me. I guess I looked like such a traveller with all those bags like Charmaine said.

Minutes later,the bus arrived about 3:30pm. I somehow managed those 3 bags all by myself into that bus. Sat down.
Ticket guy was asking for cash to pay for the ticket. And my shirt was wet with sweat when I couldn't find my wallet from my bag. Oh my!! Seriously I pannicked and didn't know what else to do other than keep searching and digging my bag. I took out my stuff little by little so that no one would notice such an embarassment. And FINALLY,wallet was found and i took out small money from the wallet slowly to pay the ticket guy. I kept some small change in my pocket to make it easier.
Out of the bus all by myself with 3 bags. The last stop was Bidor bus station and that was my stop. So from Bidor,I had to take a bus straight to Tanjung Malim.
Where am I suppose to go? No idea!!
When will the bus arrive? No idea!!
Must I buy the ticket inside the bus like earlier? No idea!!
MANA NAK PERGI???
I asked an aunty sitting nearby selling some kacang. It was an indian aunty. So i told her that I wanna go to Tanjung Malim and how would I go. Which bus do I take and stuff. She said take a bus to Sungkai and then another bus to Tanjung Malim. Seriously I was already getting tired and sweating like crazy carrying my bags everywhere. So I went to the shop which selled bus tickets and asked for the ticket to Tanjung Malim and they just had to say "Dah habis jual!". Shit man! Next ticket available is only at 5:30pm. I thought why not just wait la.
There came this 2 indian aunties telling me what to do and what not to do. They said just take the bus to Sungkai and another bus to Tanjung Malim. They said it saves a little bit cash as well. And there goes all sort of questions they had to ask that spinned my head a little and I was already sick of them telling what to do and what not to do. Seriously,I almost snapped at them and say 'JUST SHUT UP!'.
I called Uncle Thiaga and Uncle Veanu to find out what I should do. Couldn't get them for a few times. I was getting frustrated already with the situation.

Later,Uncle Thiaga called me back and I told him there's not ticket to Tanjung Malim straight so I'm taking a bus to Sungkai then to Tanjung Malim and he said okay.
-crisis-
Carry 3 bags!! Seriously my hand hurts cause there were 2 large bags and another bag i carried on my shoulder.
So sat in the bus doing nothing,just look out the window and watch my stuff. Paid the ticket money and sat back to relax a bit. Stopped by at the last stop which was Sungkai bus station.
Then waited for another bus there to Tanjung Malim. So this is last bus i'm gonna be in. I got in paid my ticket and just relaxed a bit. Put on my sunglasses and almost fell asleep because I was soo exhausted!

MY BAGS!!!

I could barely smile. Too tired! =(

good old times at home

2009-01-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

Okay so I miss home so much! I miss my mummy,daddy and buddy!! =) When I came back home,i've realized how much i've missed things and people around me. Things felt so normal at home. Not saying 1 week at Tanjung Malim and Tapah was bad. But HOME was always surrounded with undividing and unconditional love. Even with dad's nagging,mom's talks and buddy's games at all times,it was HOME! What else can I say other than HOME SWEET HOME!! =D My heart feels like something's left behind at Tapah. Haha. No not my stuff! Someone in green! Haha. Not emotionally green but in green shirt. =) My heart knows exactly who that person is and thats why this whole post in gonna be in green. In remembrance of a certain someone to Mirshal =D But well again green is also about Mother Nature. Green is refreshing and saving the environment! -going green is the new pink- [fly.fm] So you can't blame me,can you?

So I came back home on Saturday. Reached home almost 12 in the morning. Couldn't have dinner outside as I was starving and also missing food around. Food at Tapah was very simple unlike the meals I have at home or outside at shops. So I miss food a lot! But parents were so tired. Got home to unpack my stuff and take my shower. Opened a can of Campbell Mushroom Soup and cooked it! Ahhh YUMMY!! I miss my mushroom soup sooo much! =)

The next day was Sunday which was suppose to be today but it was yesterday. That sentence was meant to confuse you! Well this post is on behalf of Sunday but since its 1:44am on Monday so Sunday should be yesterday.
Confussed? Thank me!

Moving on,that afternoon we went to Centrepoint,Klang to check out some PS2 cds for my brother and get him another pair of school pants. Parents also promised him movie tickets to watch together. So we checked the available movie tickets. Mom and I were interested in a Tamil movie,Villu. We also checked the movie screening at Jusco Bukit Raja since TGV is better than GSC. Planned to watch in a group with my aunties and cousins but plan failed in the end. Parents decided to watch it on Tuesday,just us. So we went back home after a short visit to my grandma's place.

It was raining cats and dogs! Mom and I got down from the car to open the gate and get wet for fun. Beloved mom enjoyed the rain a little and encouraged me to have some time with the rain!! And woohoo,I had the time of my life with my younger brother. My mom pushed him under the rain as well to have some fun and I dragged him. Haha. =D

Me and my bro soaked under the rain!

Haha! =D

The next post will be about a week in Tanjung Malim and Tapah including Taman Ridvan with pictures. =P

-MISS ME??-

2009-01-24T12:49:00.000+08:00

You guys definitely have missed me!! I miss you guys like crazayy too!! I MISS MY MOM especially! I MISS MY BUDDY (my younger bro)! I MISS MY DADDY! -missing you like crazy- I miss my sayang,BOLSTER! I miss my ROOM! I miss my FOOD! Haha. Call me crazy? Yeah I guess I am. =)

Its about time for Jason Mraz to come and rock Malaysia and give us some inspirations through his music. His genre is so different and unique that you can never find what Jason Mraz has in another musician! It's the 'Jason Mraz's genre'!! So I guess i'm gonna be missing out on this concert 'cause i'm gonna be at Bidor and it's gonna ge great there! Haha =) Well to those who are going for Jason's concert,PLEASE at least get me a photo of him or his autograf which might be quite impossible. So yeah you guys have fun and get inspired by him! He's a very spontaneous musician on stage. You might realize that he switch his keys spontaneously during live concerts to sursprise his fans and entertain you guys and of course because HE'S JASON MRAZ!!

I will wait for PARAMORE to come to Malaysia to rock me!! I heart PARAMORE!! Hayley Williams is my idol in music and lifestyle. If you notice,she lives such a simple life and her clothes she wears express herself a lot. Like she wore a black shirt with Rod Stewart's face. Her usual clothing is just a pair of pants and a simple shirt. Her make up inspires me a lot. I have never seen any artist that has the make up as hers. So it kinda defines Hayley and makes her stand out more. Her hair is another point. I love her hair! Currently her hair is in dark red. They sang 2 songs in the movie Twilight. Decode and I Caught Myself. PARAMORE TOTALLY ROCKS!!!! I was googling on them the other day and kept on saving more pictures in my pc. Haha. I went to their official site and wanted some stuff of Paramore. A PARAMORE T-SHIRT!!!! I LOVE PARAMORE!!! I really want it!! But my parents didn't allow me to use their credit card. That could really be a great present for my birthday! I'm hinting you guys. Anything to do with Paramore enlightens me and makes me feel on top of the world! =D Chek this picture out! I would love to have this shoes of PARAMORE!!!

Seriously,I WANT THIS!!!!!! =) RIOT! PARAMORE FOR LIFE!!

Now for the surprise i've been waiting to tell you guys. I'm BACK at home for 1 week break!! Haha. So I guess I will be joining you guys at KK for CNY! =) Get ready your ang pau's for me! See you guys soon!

life without computer! not bad =)

2009-01-16T15:38:00.000+08:00

So yeah currently at cc. The network card in my CPU is gone!! And arghh..have not been using my computer for more than a week already. Leaving to Bidor tommorow so had to update my blog at least. Yeah..going to Bidor and Tapah for a 2 months service. There is a cc nearby the uncle's house that i'm staying so don't worry..I can still update when i'm over there. =)

About 12/12/12,the more I think about it and my marriage and everything,I don't think its gonna work out,man! I mean common. Seriously. I went to the Education Fair the other day at KLCC and I got to know more about my course of interest at certain colleges and found out that its a 4 years course to get a degree. So when I complete my course,I will be 22 already and it's 2013!! =( So you see my dilema here?! Ouch..it hurts!

So speaking more about my 2 months service. It's gonna be fun and exciting in Bidor and Tapah. Although I may have some trouble in a few things but nothing comes easy. God is always testing us and it's all about the crisis and victory principle that I learned in the Bahai Faith. =) I am definitely not alone there. I have God all the time by my side so not to worry about anything. Just say lots of prayers and yeah..I will be fine! =D

So I will be leaving now. Been at cc for quite a while and lots of guys here playing their game. So I will update the next time I go online in Bidor!! =)

'09 resolutions

2009-01-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

Haha.. first post for '09 and first post for the blog! =) So i'm gonna start with my resolutions for this year.

1] Commit myself in 2 months service at least before getting results and preparing for further studies. Wanna go Sabah so badly =(

2] Contribute to society and make a difference! (I'm Gonna Make A Change-Michael Jackson)

3] Get a knight in shining amour (life partner) cause i've planned my wedding to be on 12/12/12! So any guys who do not agree with this,you're not in the list. Just kidding! I really want this wedding to happen. It is one of my biggest dream in life! =)

4] Get into College/Uni. Achieve my dreams and make them come true. Make my parents proud especially.

5] Be a good sister to both my brothers. Younger and elder. Haha.. Have not been a good one so far =P (no more breaking noses,no more beating each other) Haha!

6] Cut down on fast food! Fat mass is over the board by 2kg. (that's what a machine said)

7] Pray continously for SPM results. Coming out in March. Yaiks.. =/

8] Get more chocolates and ice creams into my tummy! Haha. Sorry la can't help it. Chocolates especially! They are heavenly to me!! =D Chocolates from all over the world should come to me. I should get a guy who owns a Chocolate Factory!! Haha! =)

9] Love the RAIN!! So should play under the rain more often as a token of gratitude to my beloved RAIN! =)