this heart beats for only you

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Infatuation Turning Love

I so totally miss you!! Do you miss me??

Our eyes met when we were 10 I think. It was a crush back then. It has always been a crush. How many years? You do the Math. I know you don't really read my blog. If you do and if you feel the same,its gonna be an amazing feeling for both of us. You happened to be there for me whenever I needed someone. Either to make my day,for advise,to laugh along with,to share my craziness or just to talk crap and fade away into the night with a simple chat. We weren't that close back then. Somehow we started our friendship last year or maybe just this year. But all this while,it has been a crush. I'm not sure if its just a crush anymore. There's something much more than just a crush. Those times when I hesitated of being with another guy and not you when you were always in front of me kills me. I've always thought of being with you,wanting to fall in love with you. I'm just so afraid to tell you how I feel. So what should I do??? It has been kept a secret for a long time already.

Crush

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush
What a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much
Just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I've just got to know

[chorus:]
Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we could be?
Where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you?
Are you holding back
Like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going
Away
Going away

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging,
Spending time, girl, are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this
Into something that'll last
Last forever
Forever

[chorus]

Why do I keep running from the truth
(Why do I keep running)
All I ever think about is you
(All I ever think about)
You got me hypnotized
(Hypnotized)
So mesmerized
(mesmerized)
And I've just got to know

[chorus]

This song perfectly expresses my feelings for you! I do hope you read this and if you know who you are,if you feel the same then you are my Lucas Scott with no doubt! :D

Infatuation Turning Love

"riot!."

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

addicted to you

Okay most of you know that I'm addicted to this series called ONE TREE HILL!!! Haha :D Well the reason why I'm addicted to it is because that this series is 'the best' I've seen! So yeah. You got my point?

Other than waiting for my Lucas Scott to always be saving my life and give my heart to him without any doubts,I just love it so much the way it's directed and produced. The writer Mark Schwahn is someone who have written a really great deal and makes it so special in One Tree Hill. Quotes are taken from all the other great writers or philosophers. Well it all has reasons but the way it is directed,it just goes on and on in many special ways. Probably for those who watch and loves it as much as I do,would understand what this crazy lunatic fan of One Tree Hill is talking about. Now the cast -- Chad Michael Murray, James Lafferty, Hillarie Burton, Bethany Joy Galeotti and Sophia Bush mainly. These are the main actors and actress who made a great significant ever since from the start. Season 1-6.

As to this addiction I have towards this series One Tree Hill,I don't think I can leave my post just like this without saying anything about it! And on the other hand,there's lots to say! Imagine from Season 1-6,you want me to give a summary? Would be quite impossible but I'll make it possible for my dear readers who already love One Tree Hill and to instill some good stuff that will make you guys watch One Tree Hill for those who don't watch it! After reading,judge it aright for I will and can take any response possible. :D

SEASON 1

It all started in a town,Tree Hill. In Tree Hill High,the bunch of jocks,the cheerleaders,the basketball players,the snobs,the famous ones,the sluts,the geeks and the stranded ones. Nathan Scott was nothing more than a great basketball player for Ravens and an ass to his girlfriend Peyton Sawyer. Nathan always took Peyton for granted because he knew that Peyton had no one left in her life other than Nathan who treated her like trash as if she was just another girl to sleep around with. The day changed when Lucas Scott came in town with Hayley James. Lucas and Nathan who were brothers that shared the same father never treated each other as brothers. They despite each other. But they both had something in common which brought them together into the same world which is basketball. They loved basketball and think of it as their future which also they inherrited from their father,Dan Scott. Dan left Lucas's mom,Karen Roe when she was expecting Lucas. He had Deb Scott later on as his wife as she was expecting Nathan. So the drama all continues. It was when Lucas was repairing Peyton's car,The Comet when Lucas met Peyton's eyes and immediately fell in love with her. Now the two boys' lives collide when a twist of fate puts Lucas on Nathan's team and the half-brothers compete, not only for control of the court, but also for the heart of Nathan's beautiful girlfriend,Peyton. Lucas blows his first Varsity game at the River Court where his dreams as a basketball player was achieved since he was young. Keith Scott who was always there for Lucas and his mom since Dan left them both consoled Karen into supporting Lucas to join Tree Hill High Ravens,the basketball team. Frustrated by Lucas' growing population,Nathan searches for Lucas' weak spot, and finds it in Haley. Meanwhile, Peyton is furious with Lucas for submitting her drawings to the local newspaper without her knowledge. As Nathan and Dan never really had a father-son relationship with love. It was rough with Deb too. So Peyton went back to Lucas to rekindle their relationship but she found Brooke Davis,her best friend since they were 8. As soon as Peyton figured her feelings for Lucas,Brooke was already hitting on Lucas. It was a triangle love between this 3. Nathan took advantage by getting closer to Haley to bring Lucas down but instead later on,he fell in love with her. The 2 love birds got married soon after a while of dating.

SEASON 2

In this season,Brooke found another guy who happened to be her neighbour. And they started their inexclusive relationship pretty soon leaving behind Lucas. Peyton and Lucas were just friends seeing as Brooke was their friend too. Later on,Brooke realized her feelings were strong for Lucas and he also knew that Brooke was the one for him. He fought to get her back. He never stepped back. Pretty soon,they were together. Their relationship was so sweet and all about fun. At first glance, it may seem as if the residents of the picturesque Tree Hill have it made. Take Nathan, Lucas, Peyton, Brooke and Haley for starters. They've got youth, beauty, brains and... basketball. But, in a town like this, nothing is what it seems. Like the roots of an ancient tree, the destinies of these five are deeply twisted and tangled by betrayal, passion and secrecy.

SEASON 3

Season three finds everyone three months later, with many questions still to be answered. Entering senior year, Lucas finds his life as messy as ever as he balances his feelings for Brooke, with a recent summer that has drawn him closer to Peyton. With basketball season quickly approaching, his attempts to reconcile with Nathan grow more urgent. And since Dan stopped paying for his medication, Lucas searches for a way to treat his heart condition while continuing to keep it a secret from Karen. This is when really bad things happened in Tree Hill High. Jimmy got shot! Keith got shot! Who shot who?? Watch and find out!!

SEASON 4

Returning for it's fourth season to the town of Tree Hill, this drama revolves around the lives of two young men, Lucas and Nathan, who have little in common aside from their love for hoops and the fact that they share the same father. The inhabitants of Tree Hill have witnessed Lucas' metamorphosis from loner to high school basketball star, Nathan and Haley's troubled marriage, and Peyton and Brooke's tumultuous friendship. While the teenagers struggle to find their places in the world, the adults in Tree Hill continue to deal with the residue of decisions they made years ago. Lucas and Peyton found rekindled their first love and manage to pull things through together.

SEASON 5

The fifth season of "One Tree Hill" will be unprecedented in the annals of television drama, as the show leaps forward four years. Season four ended as the young characters graduated high school and season five begins post-college, four years later. Some of the characters have found success while others have failed. Some are the same, some are very different. And while their storylines will actively move forward, the show will also dip into the past, returning to incidents and events of the last four years, sometimes for a moment or a scene, other times for an entire episode. Its amazing how Peyton and finds a way back to Lucas and in the end,they made it through. Through ups and downs,they still manage to be together because of their first love.

SEASON 6

The show leaps into it's sixth season with more drama, mystery, romance and tragedy than ever before. Lucas is about to embark on a journey with the woman he loves, Brooke finds herself stuck in a battle for her company with her devious mother, and it seems as though Nathan and Haley are finally finding their way back to their dreams. With lives in the balance and friendships at stake, this season will find the residents of Tree Hill facing some of their biggest challenges yet while flashbacks to events in the four years past will continue to fill gaps in the lives of the friends. The movie ends by Lucas becoming a producer of his very own books that he wrote in and turning into a film. It all ends well with the sound of the hearbeat of Peyton's baby with Lucas!

WOOHOO!! The End.

"riot!."

Monday, April 13, 2009

we are the world

This song always gives me goosebumbs everytime I hear it! It is such a wonderful song i'll never forget in my life! Such a meaningful song that I can sing till the day I die. Such passion in the legendary musicians that inspires me a lot. In every second of our lives,if each and everyone of us would remember this song in our hearts and sing to it,the world will be ONE!

I believe one person in the world is enough to change the world. It is such that great musicians like this took a big step towards bringing eternal peace to the world. This song moves my heart and gives me great hope and understanding upon reaching Oneness of Mankind in our world!

Such an old song that brings a lot of memories to me. Imagine those elder than us. The dreams,the hopes,the visions they had during their time for our future. Lets all sing to it
"We are the world. We are the children. We are the ones who make a brighter day,so lets start giving. There's a choice we're making. We're saving our own lives. It's true we'll make a better day,just you and me".

We are the world. We are the future. We move the world. We make this world significant. We make a change. We are in the forefront. We create the future.
So come on lets hold each others' hands and shine brighter as youths ,as what we are to build a better tomorrow!

"riot!."

Friday, April 10, 2009

a dream i had

Its about a dream I had this afternoon when I was laying down my couch in the hall for about half an hour while waiting for my mom to come back home from fetching my younger brother. So this is what happened.

-- I saw Zac Farro in front my house distributing flyers in my neighbourhood. I was so totally stunt for seconds and I wasted those seconds real bad by just watching him put the flyer into my mailbox and starring blurly at him without saying a word. Then it kinda rang in my head somewhere that "Man,thats ZAC FARRO!! The drummer from the band PARAMORE!!!!". And bang,I thought I was gonna faint but hell no way I was gonna miss that chance! So I spoke to him like really casually and I saw a glimpse of HAYLEY WILLIAMS in the background of the picture!!! I saw her awesome PURPLE hair!! I felt like I was really gonna faint at that momment! Then I opened my gate and quickly ran to Zac and said "hey,wait for me aite? I'm gonna get my camera down." Then I saw him waving at Hayley and Josh Farro to come over my house and man,I had goosebumps and butterflies in my tummy the whole time. So I ran upstairs and was too nervous that I forgot totally where I kept my camera and damn,those seconds I wasted again!! Imagine the thoughts running through my mind. PARAMORE UP CLOSE!!! IN MY HOUSE!!! Its what i've always wanted ever since I found this awesome Tennessee band called PARAMORE!!!!!! :D I would never miss this opportunity,right? If I did,man I'm such a waste!! So I ran down back with all my heart and soul to meet up with HAYLEY WILLIAMS!!!! And JOSH FARRO!!! So I reached downstairs and saw the gate wide open and NO ONE was there! I was searching for them soo badly. I went outside and searched till the end of the street and saw NO ONE! A couple of seconds later,my mom came back and I told her everything about it. She did laughed and mocked me the whole time but I did not lose my faith just then. I started wondering "was it a dream or was it real?" Cause it sounded and looked pretty unreal/fantasy-ish but somehow I wanted soo badly to believe that IT IS REAL and I gotta see them! So at that momment I told my mom "Ma,I'm gonna search for them around the neighbourhood". So I took off quickly with my bicycle and imagine how fast I rode that bike! As fast as a speed of light?! Haha. Nah I can't reach that speed lah. It was damn fast and boomb!!! --

The phone rang and I woke up!! Like arghhh!!! And I found myself waking up from the couch and I realized it was all a dream and till now I wished I never woke up from that dream! It was something memorable to me,to my life!!

PARAMORE is a band unlike any other bands for me. Something just really catches my attention about them! Its a band I can really connect to. I highly respect and adore Hayley Nichole Williams. You can check her out. Her history and her story of life. There's always something about her I feel connected. And there are many reasons of why I love this band so much!!

I actually almost cried watching this! Watch it,for those who love PARAMORE!!! :D

"riot!."

Sunday, April 5, 2009

|;:=- please read the letter -=:;|

Please read the letter that I wrote!

Nat/Deyy

Yeah that's exactly what I call you everytime. I know you're at NS now so I'm hoping real hard for you to come back home again this weekend to read this post and we can share more love! Haha =)
I can't really describe how much I love you as my friend but I'm just so thankful and greatful to have met you when we were in 4 Science 4. You should know how much I love you up to now for everything we've gone through together. Even so I will still tell you that I love you so so much!! You know a lot about me and I guess I do too. We share a lot about our lives to give advise and courage to each other. All this stories we've shared with each other brought our friendship this far and I hope it will still go on till the end of time because you're one of my loved one in this world that I can always count on and plus we stay so close to each other. Hanging out in the park and just talking was amazing! One of the memories I can only share with certain people. I will forever remember the times where we never stoped talking even a minute for hours at the park when we're suppose to be 'exercising'. Well we found the mouth-exercise so I guess we did exercise! Haha :D
Dey,I just so love you and am really appreaciating our friendship every single day. And wishing for you to have a great life ahead with JQ. I know he's the guy for you! No doubt about that. In this journey you're heading now,I'm here for you always! True love always wins and great courage is needed and I'm sure you'll make it through! :)

Elyna/Elylalala

I'm just thankful again that we met at the same class in 4 Science 4. Didn't know you well back then till the conflict was over between a few of us and everything was clear. We had a bond not much could have out of a friendship. You know I love you and I know you love me too! Haha. Seriously I do miss the times we had together during Form 4 & 5 mostly Form 5 because thats when our gang of friends were really established and we became so close and still standing till today.I would do anything if I could go back to those times when we were in Form 4/5. Those were the best years of my life with you guys. And I guess what is most common between us both is that we're such a Rockstar for Partays!! Partays are just our thing to Rock! Haha. We go high easily and I seriously love your hyperness during partays cause I can always partay with a friend like you. For that,I will forever remember such a great friend like you!

Sheryll/Sherr

I just love you la! Those late night chats we always have and going super high talking about really random stuff! You're such a good friend. And oh,you're a great friend to talk about love stuff. I gotta remind you to get your butt in Australia fast and marry your Anthony Callea! Seriously I don't want you to go away for 1 month+ to somewhere so far away but I want you to get that super hawt guy so that I can help at your awesome wedding with an awesome hawt guy! Haha =) Just kidding la. That joke between you and Chawnie was damn funny la. That convo was super funny. Well all I have to say to you is again I'm thankful we met in the same class when we were in 4 Science 4!

Rachel/Rach

Man,I soo love you! You were really the closest friend I had during high school. And I guess after high school,life doesn't stop there and we've been so outta touch ever since. I do understand your situation although I'm not in it. You know most about me among all my friends I have. All the secrets we told each other was only between us and you should know that you're among the few people on Earth that I trust and that knows me deeply. We have gone through a lot during high school. We had arguements quite a few times. I got upset with you easily but seriously it was because you were so close to me that that friendship was something I can never afford to loose. Our friendship was too much for me to do anything to even break it apart by an inch. You must know how much I love our friendship. There were so much stuff I told you about my life that I never ever told anyone. This would sound a little mushy but bear with it. Haha. I told you before that after the conflict I had with this friend in Form 4,I met such a great friend which actually changed my life and made me who I am today. For that particular friend I met in 4 Science 4,I never turned back to who I was in the past and made a few right choices in life which till today,I'm praise the Lord for such a wonderful guidance in my life. And yes you are the friend I'm talking about! We've gone through too much to stop now and look back. This friendship we share will be a continuation of a story in my journey of life. It's hard for me to really go along with someone so well who's not in the same religion as I am but with you,I never felt that way. We always had the same vision towards life. I could still remember when everyone would say "I don't think 1 person can change the world" and both of us had the same opinion that "1 person can change the world". It may seem like a total simple topic but it was one of the deep conversations we always have that I appreaciated our friendship so badly! I can't exactly tell what was so special about our friendship but I felt it was a one-in-a-million friendship I have in my 18 years of living! Thanks to you,thanks to God and thanks to just everyone who made this friendship happen.

And what you're going through right now surely is hard but stay strong. The Rachel I know is so strong and her will to go on was something I respected highly. You're more than you even know! You're Rachel and you can do it!

This song is to you guys! The lysics is more than enough for what I would tell all of you. I love you guys!! =)

"riot!."