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We are One Flowers of One Garden,We're One Leaves of One Tree. Let the walls come down,lets stand here together. We are One FAMILY!


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Tuesday, May 19, 2009
my day
Okay dah lama aku tak update my blog so here it is..

Good news : I got into Seafield! :-)

Bad news : Its only 2 of us! :-( Yi Ping and I.

So about Seafield,damn i wish i could get outta that school and do my foundations in UCSI. I'm practically hating this 1 teacher specifically which goes by the name Pn.Daisy. Damn her. I dont know if she has issues dealing with racism or newcomers. Or worse,BOTH! She's always so tensed up and man,I would by all means stay away from seeing her face for the rest of my life! She humiliated me in front of the whole form 6 during orientation on my first day at Seafield. :@ Benci betul. And my hair kena from the teachers there bout 5 times already now. As far as everyone else know,i did dye my hair after spm and even before dying my hair,it wasn't black. Kinda hard to get silky and shiny black hair huh? So due to this problem,i decided i should dye my hair maybe dark brown. Almost black. But man,i so love my hair like this!
:'( What other choice do i have?!

So i made a few friends who are really good and friendly. :-D And i miss my high school so badly!! :'( Good teachers and okay rules i can bare with. But damn Seafield! I'm willing to do anything i can to get outta this school but then again maybe its all a test to me. Am i to fail and get back on track or pass with flying colours? I have no idea..

I'm facing a hard situation now in which i dont know exactly what i wanna do. Either stpm or UCSI. My parents gave me a time frame till September to think bout it real hard and come up with a decision quick.

-- Foundations in UCSI would be awesome! More specific into what i wanna do in my career which is major in English Language. And plus the course offered is really great which is English Language And Communications. :-D

-- It would cost so much for my parents. Bout 12K for the foudation for 1 year and adding up the accomadation and other stuff to buy including food would add up to 20K. So it would be real tough for my parents and i've never wished to burden my parents with my issues. Although its for my future,i do not by all means use up my parent's money in a blink.

So yeah. I need guidance at this very moment.
Oh and another thing!

I HAD MY FIRST ACCIDENT BEFORE GETTING MY LICENSE!!!

But im fine,car had a little damage but it was okay all in all. I got away from it clean and safely. Well maybe not that clean. I hurt my leg by kicking some metal thing real hard on the road. Who knows what got into Mirshal?! Haha :-D

And i'm sorry Rach and Nise to put u guys in the hands of an unlicensed driver. :-(
"riot!."

Tuesday, May 12, 2009
ponteng-ers
First day of school. Monday. Yesterday. 11th of May 2009. Being a lower 6 student. Woke up at 6:30am. I looked at the mirror and said "I never thought I would be wearing school uniform again EVER after Form 5!" I managed to take breakfast and rush outside to wait for Pav. Her parents picked me up at 7:45am. So we went to Shahbandaraya. Saw the kids walking to school. Mostly Malays I guess. Well the least would be Chinese. And the Form 6 students were in white blouse and blue skirt for the girls. For boys is white shirt and white pants. So we as newbies were waiting "innocently" at the hall. It was about 8:15 when we reached the school. We saw about 15 of us from our school.

Good thing was - It reminded me so much of high school. The pavement out of the classroom where we would just hang around with friends and not bothering the teachers. All the crap we did in our classroom. I miss my high school SO much! All my friends! I took some time to just look around the school and Pav told me "it isn't so bad. It actually looks kinda nice." And yeah it does look okay. The fencing was different than other schools i've been to. Its big! Haha. And again,I miss my high school!!! :)


Bad thing was - We had to wait for another 45 minutes for the registration. And oh crap when 9am reached,all of us went to the main hall downstairs and registered ourselves. All we had to do was write down our name,previous school and give them the form we printed from computer. So about transferring to another school was another thing. They said we had to go to the office upstairs to ask about it. So we went and they asked us to fill up the Surat Tawaran form and hand it in to them. My dad had it all filled up already so I just passed it to them and they said their Pengetua is not in school today so there's no one to sign it. Damn it. Thats when the parents started getting frustrated because of the leaves they took to escape from work just to work this out as soon as possible for their daughter/son. So seriously damn it. They had some taklimat later on and well of course all of us skipped that and went back home! Haha :) Yup thats us. Ponteng-ing school is always easy and plus with parents,its even easier.


So the next day. Today. Tuesday. 12th of May 2009. I decided I should skip school because I have nothing to do with this school as I'm transferring. But changed my mind when the rest decided to go and get our forms back. So I called Shalini last night at nearly midnight and asked her if I could tag along and she said yeah. So this morning I woke up at 5:30am. Yup early. Super early. Slept at about 2am and woke up at 5:30am. Then dressed myself and went down for breakfast and rushed out again to wait for Shalini. Then we arrived at school around 7:10am. 10 minutes before school started. We were again waiting in the hallway. And Vishal came up to me and talked to me. I never knew he was in Shahbandaraya. Then the prefects asked us to line up in the for assembly. Thank God it wasn't the Perhimpunan Rasmi. So the only reason why I went to school today was to get that Surat Tawaran back with Pengetua's signature and chop. They had taklimat after taklimat for us the whole day. Man,it was boring. I was half awake. Their school rules were so stupid. "Tak boleh ade 2 orang bersama-sama. Sama ada perempuan dengan lelaki. Atau perempuan dengan perempuan. Atau lelaki dengan lelaki. Kalau 3 orang atau 4 orang,boleh." Shyt rules. Haha. So single date cannot but double date can! Double date is much more fun anyway. Haha. So we were so frustrated with the teachers and how they handled things. And guess what we did? When it was time for recess at 10:25am,we went to the office to take our letter and it seems it will only be ready tomorrow. Screw this people! What the hell man! Like shyt! I went to school today to get that damn form and I came back empty handed. (WHERE'S THE FOOD) man! Haha. So we skipped school at 10:30am. Shen Loong drove us to KFC & Pizza at Sentosa to lepak. 8 of us skipped. We are known as Ponteng-ers!! :)

"riot!."

Monday, May 4, 2009
'IT' got chopped!!!
Yeah today "IT" got chopped!! I felt so empty and lost for some reason. It was hard having to watch every single bit fell down to the ground. I was tearing already after several years of care. Well not exactly years but it has been SOO long. I was so afraid. Because its erm.. SCARY?! And there my mom was sitting beside me and watching "IT" got chopped as well. I saw my mom in the mirror starring blankly at "IT" got chopped and falling and being swept away in the end. And I dont know if I'm satisfied with it. I would love to see your comments about it but if you tak suka,dont worry you're not the first and just be honest la. I can take anything. :) My family members were the first 3 to say "IT SUCKS!". So yeah don't worry! :D

YES "IT" is referred to MY HAIR!!!!!

Wanna see pictures of it?


At the saloon


Amount of "IT" that fell to the ground :(




close up
"riot!."

Saturday, May 2, 2009
awesome video!!
I found this really awesome video. Well actually not found but kinda read it from my friend's blog,Nancy which she got from another friend,Yi Ting. haha. But the root is,i'm posting this video up in my blog too because i SOO LOVE it!!! The arrangement of this song is awesome and 2 great musicians with passion for music made this video even more awesome!! So i upgrade the word awesome to PAWSOME!! okay i know a little lame. But nevermind. Suffering from insomnia isn't easy! haha :D


"riot!."