paramore/paramour n [C] literary
someone who you have a romantic or sexual relationship with, but who you are not married to
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you.
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
We are One Flowers of One Garden,We're One Leaves of One Tree. Let the walls come down,lets stand here together. We are One FAMILY!
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Thursday, September 17, 2009
catch me when I fall
I'm getting sick and tired of my life. I lost my drive in life. No motivation. No goal. No desire. No purpose. It didn't just happen out of the blue. Everything i'm going through or rather said everything people around me is going through affects my life. Their problems. Their rants. Their actions. Effects my life. Good or bad. I am the person I never thought I would be. 2009 is hectic. For the past few months,I've been tested mentally by God a lot. Perhaps what we go through as family affects each member who contributes to other people's lives.
Is this what you would call social development?
This is real tough for me. I tend to carry other weights on my shoulder even if it has nothing to do with me. Somehow it just affects life.
May it be an inspiration. May it be a motivation. May it be a downfall or a disgrace. May it be a dissapointment. May it be your fuel to drive around.
Its getting harder by the day to stay focused and together in this situation. I just can't help to think that I may need to let this slip off my hand for once and maybe catch it back again when I miss it. Its so hard. Frustration is getting to me. Anger and sarcasm is too. This attitude of mine itself disgusts and degrades my inner self. At times like this,I wish time passes by so fast that I wouldn't realise it. I wish I found that satisfaction for once and not please people around me who has high expectations. It isn't easy anymore to find that satisfaction in me because right now,I have no idea at all what do I want and what would please me.
PS : I think I'm falling for you. Since the day you woke me up from slumber. :)
"riot!."
